colours of my life

catching up

2007-07-01T05:30:00.000-07:00

waaa i feel it like ages since last i post something...well now i have myspace i care less for my blog...hihihi...i just got back from ipoh...stayed there for two days to visit my bro whose studying in gopeng...n i didnt go to school yesterday...muahahaha...gotong-royong...its not like i'm so lazy that i used the excuse going to ipoh as the reason i didnt go to school...its just i really cant go...hee ^_^ about mas...i'm ok with her already...we had a serious talk...really serious...i tried to make her understand that we live in a community in this world...we cant selfishly think about ourselves only,we hv to include others too in our thoughts...n that what she's lacking of right now...then there's this tonnes of homeworks that i have to finish...and my trial is in august...it slike in one more month...huu~ k buble for now... ^_^ no stress just relax ^_^ n dont forget to smile...hee ^_^

burning day...

2007-06-22T05:38:00.000-07:00

dak niey bikin aku hot jerr dowh...die tue mmg pandai tol wat mke x bersalah die tue...niey la akibatnye aku diam jerr smlm...hari niey abis sume prsn aku kuar...yana ngan bunyi die yg menjengkelkan tue la yg mencetuskan...sakit tlinga aku dgr la...aku tgh ckp ngan adib...then nmpk la mas nk ckp sumthing ngan aku...then after aku da bis ckp ngan adib aku ty la mas pe yg die nk ckp...pastue die wat bodo jer ble aku ty...x jwb lngsung...aku pun ok la fine die da xnk ckp lak en...aku wat la keje aku blik...then ble die lalu ngan jaja kat luar klas aku babai la die...aku kate babai mas...die wat bodo jerr!ey ape niey!tolong r wey...xkn la sbb aku x ckp ngan die ms aku tgh ckp ngan adib die nk layan aku cemnie?!pe cter?!hee aku hot btol ngan die...klu aku x tgr2 die krg nk kate aku emo la?!bukan die x tau ktorg bru kna tengking ngan cikgu!bukan die x tau ktorg kalah silat!niey nk emo2 lak ngan aku...ape kes?!paham la sket yg ktorg niey bru lps kecewa!feminine konon!boley blah ngan die nye feminine!serupe jerr!x brubah d la!tp d la gak sket die da femininen en...tp prangai lngsung x brubah!ske wat dajal ngan aku la!bnde kecik cemnie pown nk jdkan mslh negara...pe kes?!nk org paham die jerr...x bis2 die die die!pnat la aku!!!then nk kate dalam byk2 kwn die aku je yg x phm die lg...so wat?!d die nk phm aku??!!bnde kecik cemnie pun xnk phm apatah lagi bnde laen yg jauh lg susah nk phm!geram la aku!ske ati die la!asalkan ko bahagia!

my busy holiday...

2007-06-05T05:12:00.000-07:00

this holiday i have been quite busy...not very but quite...today is the second day of the second week...last week:monday,i went to aishah's house,tuesday,i went to national library and mas's house,wednesday,zati came to my house,thursday,yana came to my house,friday,i was having a rendez-vous with the internet,saturday,my neighbour got married and sunday,i was busy doing sejarah...then yesterday,monday,i was also busy doing sejarah and maths...and today i started to do revision...my point is i only started to do revision on the second day of the second week...and holiday is coming to an end...i never thought before that this holiday would be as busy as this...i mean the past holidays were extremely boring...i can guarantee...i guess this is the first holiday that i met a lot with my friends...and i love it... ^_^ now its time for revision...^_^

hik3

2007-06-03T23:22:00.000-07:00

my new improvement...!hik3...i create myspace already...muahaha...

majlis beinai...?

2007-06-02T03:54:00.000-07:00

hmm...for the past few days,i stayed at home to take care of my grandma...the first day of my duty, zati came to search for tempur's step...the second day, yana came to search for solo's step...then on friday, nobody came by...so after i brained storming for a while, i decided to create myspace...huu~ how exhausting! well, i least i managed to finish it...but urgh...i dont have any friends yet except for that 'squirrel'...i hate him...! he tricked me last night!ngau!hahaha...but as far as i'm concern, he did put last night song in his myspace...so i guess its ok...ok ok back to my life...last night i went to my neighbour's 'majlis berinai'...but it didnt seem like it...the bride had already wore 'inai' on her hands...(izzati!kau selalu takde dalam majlis cemni ey!aku xd kawan la!)hahaha ok hmm where was i?...then after my mom and i ate,we went inside the house to watch the 'tepung tawar' event...i supposed it was womens' night but there were a few guys who wanted to do the 'tepung tawar' thing...hahaha many guests didnt know how to do it and the bride had to explain to them...well my mom was one of them...hik3...then after the session was finished, the bride then threw sweets and money and the children would try to grab them...hmm...well it was hilarious...hehehe but i guess a little painful for the children because the sweets hit their heads...(mind you!i am NOT one of them!) well, that's a little info for me and you...

wonderful day...hik3

2007-05-28T04:03:00.000-07:00

today we(adib,khushairi,mas,ecah n me) supposed to go to national library to do some research...BUT...the national library was closed!i already arrived there!mas and aishah were already on their way AND UNBELIEVABLY(betul ke ni?) those two guys were still in their houses...and the most irritating part was that khushairi KNEW the library was closed today!if only he told us about it yesterday,then we wont have to go through all those troubles!hahaha give all the blame to khushairi!hahahaha i'm so bad...(not!) muahaha...but then i went to aishah's home...we ate lunch at McD in ampang point...then luckily her brother came home at the right moment to send me to lrt station...hehehe ^_^ if not i would have to take the bus!hahaha my money is saved!(like i have any) kuikuikui... ^_^

two jokers of the year...

2007-05-25T05:34:00.000-07:00

today was the last day of school for the first term...after school i went to jj with aishah...we had something VERY IMPORTANT to buy...hik3...some days before,he said to me that if we(aishah and i) want to go to jj, tell him...so i told him about we're going to jj today...then after some time aishah and i looked and searched in jj, he showed up with adib...at first,we didnt see where they are but then we saw them in kfc,eating...hmm...what i can say is that its not fair!they get to wear t-shirts and all n we were wearing school uniform!we really felt out of place...they got to bath and wear nice clothes and all and we were so tired and sweaty...then they teased us!its just not fair!but honestly speaking,those guys looked very cool...^_^ i never knew they would look soo different in normal clothes other than school uniforms...hehehe...really2 cool if you dont know who they are...but once you talked to them,all the coolness shattered to thousands of pieces!they are terribly annoying!of course the jokes that they made were funny and all but khushairi most of all really didnt know when to stop!he's just soo irritating!and when he paired up with adib to make jokes,they could be the most annoying jokers ever lived!i really had a good laugh...i know...i cant deny that...but when they(especially khushairi) went overboard, i just cant stop myself to explode...but all in all it was fun and i had one of the most laughable times in my life...if only aishah and i could wear something more appropriate,then things would be much better...

after exam

2007-05-18T02:45:00.000-07:00

i'm back!!!i stopped blogging for a while because i wanted to concentrate on my studies...actually my exam ended last wednesday but i didnt have the chance to post anything until today...i was too tired to surf the net...last wednesday,after the school ended,yana,farisa and me taught naqib how to do 'solo'...then yana came to my house to create her email accounts...she seriously didnt know anything about emails...then yesterday evening i was soo tired...once i entered my room,i slept immediately without changing my school uniform...i dont know why i felt soo tired...maybe because i didnt have enough sleep the last few days...huh~ i knew one of the marks for my papers and i'm not satisfied...i felt frustrated because my marks is lower than the last exam...huh~ i'll do my best for my trials...i dont want my marks to go down...well,good luck miaka-chan...

we're ok...

2007-05-10T01:45:00.000-07:00

^_^ at last...i'm ok again with him...the first day that we fought i sent him a msg but he didnt reply...the second day i apologised again...he replied but sinically...the third day i wished him good luck for the exam and apologised again...that night he requested me to call him...i called after i woke up from my short sleep...i thought he forgave me but from the sound of it,it seemed he was still angry with me at that time...then there was something that he said that made me felt very sad and i broke down...i guessed it melted his heart when i'm sad...he said he was sorry for making me sad...then today,i didnt think i have the guts to look into his eyes...after school he called me and asked why i reacted like that?was i angry?i said i'm just scared to look at him...he told me that he didnt felt soo good when he knew i was sad...so he said that there wont be a cold-him anymore...he'll be the happy-him...^_^ i'm very glad...so it seems we're ok now...my only wish for him now is that i hope he do well in the exam...

my stupid mistake...

2007-05-07T02:10:00.000-07:00

i did it again...its all my fault...i fought him today...i accused him...its all because of my hot-tempered...i did it again...i made him angry...just its because of a different reason...but in the end its because i didnt believe him that made he's angry with me...i know and i realised its my fault...he's angry with mas too is my fault...he's angry with adib too is my fault...if i didnt accused him for taking my money he wouldnt be angry with them too...its all my fault...well i suspected he took it because he knew where i put the money...after science before i went for my recess i found the the money's gone...so i only thought of one person which was him because i thought he's the only one whose bold enough to play tricks on me...i thought he took the money to make me angry...so when he persistently denied,i just got very angry...i thought he was pulling my legs...i shouted at him(as much as i regret it now)...i refused to believe when he said that he didnt take it...its all my fault...i'm the one whose sooo dumb to put the money there...and i accused him for taking it when there could be in a one million chance that other people might took it...i'll make up for the money loss...but what i really hope now is that he forgive me and not being angry anymore...i did it again...last exam also the same thing happened...he got angry because of what i did...now the following exam,the same thing happens again...huh...why am i such a fool?

exhausting friday...

2007-05-04T05:03:00.000-07:00

i'm happy to see azim today ^_^ yesterday he skipped school...he promised not to do it again but i dont believe him...the last time he said like that,he disappeared the next day...and it happened again yesterday...i told him to do the homework that he supposed to do...i dont know why i cant stand it when he 'fly' or didnt do his homework...its like studying is not important to him and it hurts me to think like that...but he said it is...i'll believe him if he prove it to me...i'll believe if he fulfill what he said just now...his promise...and also today i told farisa what she want to know soo much but her reaction is unexpected...she's not surprised...i thought she would but she didnt...ok so now,its my gang,aishah and wan who knows...lalalalala~ as long as they keep it quiet its fine by me...its not that i want to tell the whole world,its just that they're my friends and they suppose to know...well,certain knows but not all of them...and today we've got another step for silat...yana's soo enthrilled!hahaha she's soo cute when she's like that...she looks like a cartoon character drawn to live...hahahaha...with the new step,we're one step ahead and we also discovered that we are soo not fit and it showed that our last year's masal was soo not tough...and this year we totally change the concept and it make things a whole lot exhausting!well what i know now is that i have to stress on my studies first...after the exam,i'll stress on masal...

PS, its my first onii-chan birthday today...happy birthday along!cepat2 la kahwin...amin..hahaha

muhd asyraf fariq a.k.a. along

2007-05-03T02:55:00.000-07:00

i'm in a great mood today...hehehe...last night,acap called me!hahaha...out of the blue too...haha then he suddenly said that i'm full of myself and had forgotten him...huh!who's the one who seemed didnt want to talk to me in the first place?!he didnt even wish me during my birthday!now he said i've forgotten him!bluek!hahaha but i dont mind now...hihihi i'm happy he still remember me...he called from his boarding-school!at night too!and he called three times!hahaha i asked him why he called then he said because he missed me...i just laughed...hahaha i really didnt expect that answer from him...i'm very happy just to hear his voice...and hahaha he called me icah!hahaha it sounds weird to me...but he's such a sweet guy...i just hope he'll study hard because he said that his last result was not soo good...he got to stay in the boarding-school just like he wanted so i hope he make the best out of it...^_^ then just now i received a moon at school...hihihi it is soo cute!plus it's blue!he wants me to accept it as my birthday present...thnx that's soo sweet of you...^_^ ok its 6pm already and i have to get ready for tuition...and i really hope that we'll go out to eat tomorrow...i want to celebrate yana's birthday...i want to! k bye for now~

my close friend...

2007-05-02T04:05:00.000-07:00

i have to let it out...i cant stand it...it keeps bugging my head no matter how much i tried to ignore it...! just now at 5pm i played badminton with izzati...at last!...and when we played we talked about a...and the thought about him just keeps playing in my head until now...and i cant stand it because i'm trying to study here!!!so i need to get it out of my head A.S.A.P. so here i am sitting in front of the computer in my brother's bedroom to let it out in my blog...just now she asked me why?so i said because of the cuteness and sincerity...and i SAW she made those faces that liyana used to make when our conversation was about a...now that i think about it,he was never sincere during the early time of our friendship...well you could say SOMETIMES but mostly he lied to me or played me...it was fun for him but not for me...but as times passed by he became more and more sincere in our friendship...i respect when a sincere about a's feelings...i trust a on that...anything that includes a's feelings i believe what was said...a's the naughty type...i never experienced or knew anything about a life of a naughty person...most guys are naughty but i was never close to one...and when it comes to advising,what a hard job it is!and a's one of the guys which seem nice with girls and talk sweetly...and the terrible part is a doesnt even realise that he's playing with someone's feelings...he looked blur but he's not...our friendship is about a year already...he's still with the sweet talk...now that i realised,after izzati point it out,no one among the guys in our form(that i know) is matured...no one including him...he is actually a nice person but acted like a lousy one...like we said just now,those guys probably think being matured is not cool or something or maybe its embrassing for them...well they are totally wrong...zati said maybe he thought he's matured but the fact is he's not...well,i can guarantee that he's not...with all those childish act i've witnessed, there's no way i'm going to say he's matured...being soo irresponsible...soo childish...well,from my friends point of view he is not a nice person at all but i'm comfortable being freinds with him...when i talked to a i feel that i can say about anything...although with all those childish,irresponsible and most immatured acts, he's still my friend and i'm comfortable being friends with him...i just hope that he'll be matured soon and stop the idiotic behaviours...it'll be my happiness if he does...

tiring...

2007-05-01T02:35:00.000-07:00

i had just finished doing revision on history chapter 4 which is on brooke's family...i am mentally tired right now...very tired...i thought i want to stress it out by playing badminton but it seems izzati's not home...she didnt even answer her call...so i thought what can i do to diminish this tiring state of mind...i NEED distraction...i thought i minght as well go to Loo's shop but no one is available to take me there...so here i am...posting for my blog...i hope this choice is the right one...i have a lot more to revise after this...now that i think about it,i think this is the first time i write something using proper english...i want to laugh but i dont have the desire to do it...i'm just soo tired...hmm but it seems my tiredness has lessen as i write more...good thing...by the way,i really need to go to Loo's shop...not just because i need distraction but i guess its a good excuse for one...i want to find papers which have pictures on them...i have a project and i hope to make the best out of it...i want the project to be a success...i'm hoping for good reaction...even if a smile is given to me, it is more than enough ^_^ for no one information, i'm listening to fly.fm right now through my third brother's mp3...music is a good distraction too...hmm i can feel it...i dont know how to describe it...but i can feel it inside me...no flowers bloom...no butterfiles flutter...nothing...just silence...just what i want this moment...

GET A GRIP!!!

2007-04-27T22:14:00.000-07:00

huaaaarghhh!!!!!!aku nk studi sgt2!!!!tolong lah aku!!!!aku rasa teramatlah malas nk studi!!!!fizah!!!!get up!!!!bgn!!!!studi cpt!!!!dont waste ur precious3 time lazing about!!!!!i'm soooo terribly angry with myself!!!!!huaaaa!!!!!geramnya!!!!!!!!!!!!!aku nk baca sejarah tapi susahnya nk concentrate!!!!!aku nk study!!!!!anyone help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!buhuhuhu...aku ingat nk mintak kashif put some senses into me but it seems he's feeling the same as me this moment...waaa~ why must u feel sober now kashif????i need ur words of wisdom and advise!!!this is sooo frustrating!!!i am really in terrible need for someone to kick some senses into me....i need someone or something to get my whole self back together!!!!this is sooo not me......waaaaa!!!!buckle up fizah!!!!get a grip of urself!!!!stop ur nonsense behaviour and start doing sensible things like DO REVISION GO-TY!!!!!!!!!!!NOW!!!!

huu...

2007-04-09T06:40:00.000-07:00

periksa tgh tahun lg sebulan...huhu...aku nye peksa french rabu nie n the all topics akan masuk...huu~ serius duh...da la peksa ngan org french tu thn nie n aku cam xle thn nk cuak...tp xpe...insyaAllah aku leh buat...n aku nk studi tol2...klu dlu aku cam lek2 lg en but now aku akan berusaha bg full comitment kat studi nie...sejarah aku nk wat psl kawen org n9 n geog pun aku nk push3...fuh! gle duh! ntah nape aku cam smngt gle en nk blaja...tp bgs r tu...huu~ aku akan berusaha!yea chayo2 fiza! gambatte!

huu~

2007-03-27T05:57:00.000-07:00

da agak lame aku x posting...aku agak sibuk kebelakangan nie...dengan pressure BI nye...nk wat kerja kursus sejarah psl kahwin2 tuh n kerja kursus geografi...kali nie lg byk kna cari responden...klu thn lps 20 thn nie 50!!!nk cri 20 pun cam da nk lalok nie nk cari 50 responden...huu~ however!i will work hard!for pmr!work hard fizah!!!gambatte!!!fighting!chayo2!huu~ nk tunggu keputusan priksa lg...huu~ agak tension r...da la result peksa nie nk tunjuk kat mk bapak...hantar kat jabatan lg!nk2 lagi die tgk result kli nie nk tentukan kte msk aliran mne!!!lg la haru!science aku tu x tau la...nk msk aliran science lg tu!huu~ berat2...seksa kepala aku...huu~ x penah aku rasa sebeban nie sepanjang aku sekolah...huu~

first day of exam...

2007-03-19T00:30:00.000-07:00

what a relieve! i'm done with history today...it's like a burden was lifted from my shoulders!huu~ soo many facts too remember...urgh i hate history...i'm also done with 4 essays; hooray! but...tomorow i have more essays...waaa...but its ok i guess...i love to write...tho sometimes what i write are 'immature'...its ok...i'm learning...i'll never stop...^_^

sabah~

2007-03-17T00:34:00.000-07:00

i just came back from sabah...i never really thought that i would took 4 flights during the trip..4 flights!so many!from kk to lahad datu n lahad datu to kk...huu~in the first flight from kl to kk my ears hurted a lot!n i had an awful headache!urgh..i just hate flights...but what i love bout flight is i could see the clouds!hihihi when the plane flew through the clouds and above the clouds the scenery was magnificent!its like we're on a different level of the planet...hahaha..the clouds looked just like cotton candy and its hard to believe that they r actually droplets of water...hmm fascinating...^_^and seing kk from the plane was really a wow experience too...very beautiful..and i kept sucking candy during flights...well i forgot to buy candy for the first flight so that's why it hurted soo much...but for the rest of the flights i didnt feel pain anymore...thnx to da candy!haha k got to go...hv to study...huu~ exam next monday till friday!disaster!and that's why holiday was not very enjoyable in the first place!i hv to study during holiday!what a pain in the neck!huu~k tata..chayo2 fizah!fighting!

berusaha!...

2007-03-04T02:30:00.000-08:00

aku sedang brusaha sungguh2 n aku harap aku xkn malas insyaAllah...amin...hehe...mmm...x lama lg aku nk g sabah n cam x sesuai sgt sbb lps cuti tuh aku d periksa awal tahun where sepatutnya subjek2 yg masuk periksa tuh masuk time tengah tahun...hmm...watevea their reasons are, i'll do my best!...gambatte miaka-chan ^_^ chayo2!

huhu

2007-02-27T02:20:00.000-08:00

pagi td aku da bagi coklat yg aku bli semalam kat dia...aku x la bg betul2 kat dia , aku letak kat meja dia...dia kata x ske coklat jadi aku bli la coklat putih...hahaha same la tu tapi wane ja laen...aku x tau la dia suka ke x en...biar la aslkan aku buat pe yg aku nk buat...hari nie dorang kt ada check-up en so aku ajak la yana tuka baju awal2 tp rupa2nya xd pn...mesti esok...x pe r...blh trus tuka baju silat...tp aku tkt nk buat silat lps da kna suntik tuh...dorg kt sakit...aku bukan la tkt sakit tuh tp aku tkt jadi pe2 ble buat silat ngan keadaan cmtu...heee klu jd pe2 cmne??tu yg aku tkt skunk nie...da la sok de pertandingan kawad...sian mas ngan fatin...kna kawad ngan keadaan cmtu...weyh...!aku underweight!krg dapt ubat pil!!!eewww!!!aku xnk...!!bluek!x ske!x ske!x ske!waaa nk nangis....da la bau ubat tu kuat gila!x thn aku!zati tunjuk td aku tgk dgn mte x caye je..waaa...aku x nk pil...suntik aku x ksh tp pil???no!!!yada...!

me and him

2007-02-23T07:58:00.000-08:00

i have just realised that he is different...he is different from me...from friends who i normally spend time with...from friends that i had before him...i realised now that when you enter a whole new world you'll meet diferent kinds of people with different backgrounds, different mentalities, different mates, different attitudes and so much more...we are all not the same...we think differently, we have different types of friends and we come from different lifestyles...he is not the kind of person whose life is just restricted to friends from school, old friends and family...he's different from me...normally that's who i am...but i'm edging closer and closer to the outside world...i try not to think from one point of view...but he's different...i think he has done what i'm trying to do long long time ago...he has soo many friends that maybe even i never possibly thought of being friends with...he is way much more social than i am...i know people like this exists...of course i know...if i dont, then there might be a serious problem with my head...what i dont know is i never expect to be close to such people...i'm not that social type...but i'm close to one...which i never imagine i would be doing...i was wondering if he thinks i'm in a nutshell...its kinda hurt if he does...well...i be myself...that's what i did and that's what i will do...zutto...

congratulation kashif!and sorry...

2007-02-22T01:24:00.000-08:00

congratulation kashif!i'm happy for you!congrats congrats congrats congrats congrats...!!!he said he got 84% and first position!although i dont really know what he meant but my guess is he's the top in his batch...^_^ i'm really happy for you!if only you are here then i could really congratulate you properly...@_@ but its ok...i'm really happy to hear your success eventhough we are miles away...^_^ congratulation again!but i'm really ashamed because i thought that you had forgotten me but its seems not...i'm very sorry...i apologise from the bottom of my heart...i'm really really sorry for thinking ill of you...sorry again...i was really happy to read the news you gave just now but i also feel guilty for thinking bad of you...sorry again...i'm sorry...i'm really really very sorry kashif...sorry sorry sorry from the bottom of my heart...sorry again...@_@ but i'm happy to hear your good news ^_^ and sorry again...

silat

2007-02-14T02:16:00.000-08:00

weyh...pnt gler weyh...serius pnt gler...aku rs cam nk kna serangan jantung je td duh...serious ckp...first round tu la mmg ms da bis wat lompat hooray tuh aku rs cam kna serangan sakit jantung je!mmg penat gler2!serious lps da wat tuh aku xd suara langsung...suara aku langsung xnk kuar!mmg aku cam keputusan oksigen...mmg seriously aku ckp x pnh aku rs sepenat nie!!!yana bes duh!!!die x wat lngsung!!sbb die d mslh negara...eee geramnye...die lepas wat sume2 tuh...huhuhu...pnt gler tahap cipan...pnt!!!

some some some

2007-02-10T21:20:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a school day...nk ganti for the excess holiday that the school took...well school was until 1 pm...and about 3pm me and few frens went to some street to buy some things...geez...that taukeh r cinkak lowh...grr...lousy fellow...then we went to some place to buy something...that time i really didnt know what to buy...but then we decided to buy a something...it's such a cool thing and very cun ^_^ maybe on monday i'll give the thing to some person...hehehe...dont know what that person's reaction will be like...hurm...wondering...wondering...then when i got back home,i called some person and we talked like some time and the conversation was somewhat like very interesting until we talked for some time ^_^ hahaha well what's soo interesting was because we talked bout silat!hohoho very2 interesting...^_^

bluek!

2007-02-09T04:04:00.000-08:00

today was a good day...well kinda nice...hurm not very nice actually...mas didnt talked to me at first...i realised that she ignored me when i called her...maybe i thought she didnt hear..ok fine no problem but then i cant stand it anymore...i asked ira what's wrong with mas coz she ignored me...
she didnt know...so i asked mas myself what i did wrong...is it becoz i palau her yesterday...then she sadi remember it urself r...with her cold tone...i felt guilty...but its just a small thing...not like i did it on purpose... = [ but after that we're ok again...hee cuak aku...seriously sometimes i cant predict her actions and when she's angry sometimes the reason is unpredictable...and i think today is the highest amount of attempts that the boys tried to make me fell...urgh nyampah tol!ske sgt nk wat org tersadung!blek!and i dont like hafiz today...i want to borrow rm1 pun xleh...blek!stingy!its not like i'm not going to pay it back...name pown borrow!huh!stingy hafiz...XP

hihi ^_^

2007-02-07T03:25:00.000-08:00

hmm2 ^_^ today i felt soo good...the first thing i did this morning was checked my email...n there were 2 emails from kashif...wah!i love it!it felt very nice inside when u knew there was someone cared for u especially when that person is the oppposite sex...hihi ^_^ today the boys came to silat too which was very2 exciting for me...hahaha dont why but i like it when the boys came to silat each time...maybe becoz it made silat looks like many people or maybe becoz they r the boys...hak2 wateva...the point is they came and that's what made me happy...^_^ what's the point they join silat if they didnt came right?so when they did came i felt very good inside...its more exciting to do something with ur frens u know...even abg nizam didnt lecture us like he did last week which was very good coz we(me actually) didnt have to do the 2-minutes-in-the-position-of-the-boys-pumping...hahaha doing that thing was really tiring...my arms muscle mostly and the legs...fuh!really exhausting!but actually we did that thing just now...and what's unbelieveable was that i only broke of from that position for one time only!its like i actually manage to endure almost the 2 minutes horror!wow!really2 unbelieveable...a record for me...hahaha today i have tuition...later actually...and bal isnt going to be with us anymore coz he stopped already......what a pity...its not like i actually talked to him during the tuition...its just not going to be the same...@_@

seriously speaking

2007-02-03T07:33:00.000-08:00

seriously...i dont what is the reason they gave me all that comments...they just made me more confused and all...hurm...so i helped him...then what?its not like i'm going to do all his work or anything...i'm just helping one or two...then what?someone ******* me???wow shocking!seriously speaking i never thought that far...and another thing which was shocking is when i told someone bout it...someone said someone's jealous!hoho unpredictable...truly unpredictable...never cross my mind that someone would feel worry or jealous for me...haha

urgh

2007-01-28T23:04:00.000-08:00

waa...feel soo tired...body soo weak...thinking how to solve the 'brownies bear' problem...angry with that bossy guy...always force people do something...urgh never like him!soo irritating!hurmph...

hurm...

2007-01-24T14:34:00.000-08:00

aku rasa aku sedikit stress r...x keterlaluan sgt r tp tetap ade r...first maybe psl masal...ntah r kan aku pown x tau sbenarnye...maybe sebab tu maybe bukan sebab tuh...sebab aku pown x pasti aku stress ke x...aku harap aku dapat wat la training masal sume tu karang kan...nk studi lagi...x pe...insyaAllah boleh...ye r ...aku x nk r dianggap pentingkan diri lak...dorg sume nk buat tp aku sorg je xnk...keputusan mmg r kat tgn aku tp xkn la sebab aku sorg je xnk buat so masal xle jadi an...mmg selfish giler r tu...buat je an...dorg sume pown confident n smngt nk buat,xkn aku nk sia2 kan cmtu je...buat je la...hurm...erm...

my birthday...

2007-01-20T23:43:00.000-08:00

this year's birthday is really memorable ^_^ bal gave me an absolutely cute teddy bear which unfortunately pink in colour...urgh,pink!he even made the card on his own which is very creative of him...he encourages me to do my best for PMR...farisa also gave me an encouraging card where she reminds me of the people who love me and to concentrate in my studies and forget cartoon bussiness...thnx farisa!i really need that ^_^ and strangely,they both gave me their persents and cards in cute bags!weird...even liyana will give me my present with a bag...a completely beautiful bag she concluded...hehe i'm waiting for it with patience...well,actually she bought me a wrong present and she want to change it which means she have to buy another present...the present she bought earlier she will give it to her sibling...i'm sorry for her...really she neednt need to buy another present...its fine with me if she cant give me one...she told me she spent about RM30 for my present,wow!and it really gave her headache to think what present she would give me...huhu i'm touched!thank you yana!i love u!elena also gave a present,on friday...she kept singing birthday song to me...quite irritating actually,haha but touching coz she did that ^_^ then kashif gave me 3 birthday cards!they're really beautiful and the words made me smile ^_^ its really wonderful of him...and zati gave me a fantastic present!it is soo cute!i really am very lucky to have such thoughtful friends ^_^ and there r also many others who wished me...but sadly,there r also who forgot...hurm,what can i say...if they forgot there's nothing i can do...i pray that their days r bright and free from problems...amin...^_^

klas agame

2007-01-09T23:30:00.000-08:00

actually i'm happy today but right now i am not =( just now kashif was online but suddenly he's offline...i'm extremely sad...well forget bout that now...now, i want to update my blog...

akhirnya d gak klas yg bes gile2...n yg x bley bla nye klas agame yg bes gile2 tuh...ustazah suhana tu nmpk je garang kat luar tp ble die ajar...,fuh!mmg syok r...gile2 punye bes!hehehe x penah seumur hidup aku rs klas agame bley jd bes cmni... ^_^ mmg x sngke...

td blajar solat ketika sakit,amirul hakim n yusof yg jd model mmg kesian gler!dorg cam jd bhn gurauan an sbb ustazah cam wat lwk...cara dorg pun lwk...da la kna wat ats meja guru tuh...hahaha mmg klakar gler la smpai skt perut aku nk gelak...ustazah ni ajar bgs je,cpt je...mmg teknik yg berkesan r...trus wat nota dlm klas...n x gne buku teks tu!mmg terel r...

mmg klakar dol ustazah tuh...x abis2 nk kaitkan psl laksamana...eee grm aku...x bley blah btol...hehe...n yg klakar tuh azham leh jd murid cnth tuh!haha klakar tol...tp yg kesiannye si kushai da dpt gelaran budak kampong...ms first day tu la...aku x phm asl ustazah pggl die bdk kg...sian die...tp klakar sgt ^_^

hari nie mmg syok gler...well sbenarnye klas agama je yg menceriakan hari aku kat skul ari nie...hihihi ^_^

first day as a third former...

2007-01-03T00:16:00.000-08:00

eventho today is the first day of school but i can already feel the burden on my shoulders...i can already feel the stress...huargh...dorg lantik aku jd bendahari kelas...huhu xnk...da la aku jd bendahari pahlawan...aku pun jd setiausaha silat sekolah...dengan banyak2 kerja kursusnye,dgn silibus yg nk dihabiskan before julainye...dengan harapan sume org nye...argh...tension la...aku nie da la jenis yg tension...hish bengang btol la...grr...huhu x thn la...rs nk nangis...aku nk mngadu tp xd sape nk dgr...wah nk ngade la plak...tp tu la yg aku rs nk sgt wat skunk...

hee buat malu je dowh...

2006-12-19T21:09:00.000-08:00

smlm buat malu je duh...haih...smlm aku ingat ari rabu tau sbb aku nk siapkan ketas pmr yg ckgu tu bg so aku cam kelam kabut nk siapkan sebelum tuition start an...so da siapkan ptg smlm ketas tuh n then lps maghrib tuh aku siap2 nk g tuition...mmg x bley blah au...aku siap cam btol2 la d tuition an...then g la awl skit,n jumpe maimun n die ajak msk...die ty aku first time ke n aku pk xkn la slame nie die x nmpk aku dtg?then die ty aku keje bm da siap?bm?aku pk...then aku pk maybe die ckp psl ketas pmr yg aku bru siapkan ptg td...then die ckp bm lg so then aku ty die ari ni ari pe???die ckp slase...aku cam what???!!!aku ingatkan hari rabu dowh...mati2 ingat ari rabu...haih buat malu je...tp sbb salah hari aku dapat ckp ngan naim...tp serius die x brubah...pemalu nk mampos...serius malu...aku nk ckp ngan die,die pegi lari...haih sabar je la...nasib la die jawab klu x jwb x tau pe aku nk kt...tp aih...mmg malu nk mampos...aku da siap duduk kat ats kerusi da siap bukak beg da...aih...malu btol...tp smlm mmg agak laen r...aku buat ketas pmr tuh kat buaian dpn rumah hakim...x sngke lak die dtg borak ngan aku an...agak lame la gak ktorg borak...6.45 tuh aku da msk rumah da...aku pinjam death note ngan die...aku ingat scary tp lngsung x pown...tp an hehehe,x sngke die msk basketball...da terel main...gold medal ntuk peringkat daerah tuh...peringkat negeri perak kot klu x silap...die bru msk thn nie kire mmg power r...then aku cter la skit2 yg ktorg msk silat...hehe...laen kli aku nk dtg awl la kat tuition...leh ckp ngan naim...hahahahaha...

my mind...

2006-12-18T08:01:00.000-08:00

hurm...it really is hard for me...yup,life is hard for me...well,not just to get on with my daily-life but most of all is when i wake up every morning and start to use my brain...of course its the same for everyone but i just want to say bout me k coz this is my site n i get to say what i want...

well,i kept thinking that my friends(not all but some people) are the same as another people like them...like this one...,i thought he's the same as tam and when i dont think bout him and i see tam,i'll remember him...i dont know why i think he's like tam coz they r like sky and earth(hahahahaha)...they dont even resemble each other in any way but yet i feel them the same...its really odd and bizzare,this kind of thinking...

then this another guy(its always guy,hehe)...when i see darius for the first time in the tv,it was like watching him in there...really2 excrutiating(is this it?)...!and there's one time when i had trouble with this guy,then i saw darius...its really frustrating coz that point of time i dont want to see him but watching darius was like watching him!and darius in the tv is not such a good guy...he's the most irritating,annoying,stuck-up nose guy i had ever seen...!and the horrible thought often came slipping into my mind;this hateful guy is him?!and it was really an awful thought of course!eewww...!i just hate it u know...totally...as much as annoying my friend could be but its not anything like that worst darius!

hurm...its tiring u know...my mind is like a machine that goes on forever when i'm awake...and there's not a second it doesnt think something odd if i'm not concentrating on something...it always has something to think...always something up its sleeves(what the heck is this???)...blaming on my own mind when i'm the one whose controling it...what a geek!is it geek?ah whatever...but to be frank,i am really a complicated one...mymind always does the thinking...so there r millions of thoughts going in my head...so u can say i'm a type of person who thinks highly of herself sometimes...not always of course but when its the mind which does all the thinking,u cant say if its true...^_^

friendship...

2006-12-14T07:43:00.000-08:00

it triggers my mind...what is friendship? can friendship really be build through the cyber world? could that really be call friendship? normally it wont lasts...thats what people thought...but i really hope friendship that brittle would never end because sometimes we could find true and solid friendship through there...but could that really happen?two souls who never meet, never hear each others voice, never look through the eyes, never see the solid flesh and never see the expressions that showed on each others face when things happen...one can just absorb the feelings the other feel through the words written in the chat site...can really that be classify as a friendship? it doesnt matters to me...as long as someone sincerely want to build friendship with me, i'll accept...eventho we cant see each other and talk face to face, i'll try my best to liven the friendship and accept it as it is...but i'm sure if both people can meet, a stronger relationship can be build... that i dont deny...

mmm...

2006-12-13T20:59:00.000-08:00

well nmpknye sume pun da ok blk...aku da x down n da ok blk...mmm...x sngke lak pe yg akan jd terbalik...tp memandangkan sume pun da ok so it doesnt matter anymore...as long as da ok its fine by me...tp die da pun dpt gelaran dri aku...heh...pe bley bwat...tp skunk da ok...maybe die lain...who knows...mmm...ok la da ok blk...tp aku nie haih...x tau pe nk ckp...lemah sgt...aih...pe bleh bwat...just try to be more stronger next time something like this happen...mmm...i'll try...to be more open...and not soo worked up over a simple thing...yup...i'll try my best...yup...i'll do that...but it sucks tho,coz its the fifth time i got down coz a guy and its the third time it gets too much of me...it really sucks...hmm...when will i stop being such a baby?......i dont know...next time i'll try harder...yup...

its just too harsh...

2006-12-13T06:46:00.000-08:00

harsh...harsh...its too harsh...its too cruel...too much to endure...had to pass it on...coz its too much...too enormous to be taken alone...open hands help a lot...but still hazy all along the way...dont know when will be alive again...its just too much to take...too much to confront...too harshly damn serious...not a speck of pity...its the cruellest possible way that could be imagine by normal mind...too complicated to process...too curstful to explore...too much...way too much...cant take it right down to solid truth...tho its still fuzzy to see the cause...that ignited what ever had happened...its blur...cant make out what it was about...its too damn harsh...just awful...hit right to the pit of the belly...that causes soo much pain...just too much to take...too harsh...

universal...

2006-12-06T07:23:00.000-08:00

today i had another confusing conversation...with my far-distant fren, kashif the 19-year-old boy...today talked a lot on the topic of love...blah3...my head kinda hurts coz i had to think what to say...but its an interesting topic...then i went to tuition today and i met lots of old frens but i didnt hv the chance to say hi...pity me...huhu...but the math tuition was fun...very interesting...the teacher was a talkative one and he did made it enjoyable...i love it...

4th of december...a special day...

2006-12-05T00:15:00.000-08:00

yesterday i had alot of fun...hihi...wanna knw why?hehe...well becoz i was cheerful yesterday neh...i had an unusual good mood so the day shined brighter than usual...hehehe...i seemed wanting to talk to everyone that i can...i called my frens...and even when i chated i laughed a lot...maybe becoz i started the day with laughter...hehehe...my fren called me at 8 am so i was like still half-awake...so the conversation that we had was hilarious...and i also had this confusing chat with my other fren and my heart was thumping badly to what the conversation was taking to...and my mind was going crazy wether to concentrate onthe chat or to my bes fren problem...it was really a hard time that time...but i guess i sorted it out ok...forth of december eh...hehe...i have to remember that date...it does seemed special in a kind of way...hihi...today i had some fun too...watching sakura-chan and syaoran-kun...hihihi...i'm trying to be cute while writing this...hehe...its kinda funny tho...hahaha...i really wonder why i'm having this good mood these couple of days...hurm...?hehe..^_^

a cheerful day...?

2006-12-03T20:02:00.000-08:00

hurm...last night i slept at 3 am in the morning...! u wanna knw why? well,coz i wanna watch tv...hahaha...what a funny excuse...if i stayed up coz i wanna study, thats more acceptable i think...hehehe...i could give up the bear just to watch anime...haha...freaky fizah...i'm suppose to wake up late today,no? coz that was the first time i stayed up soo late...and i should still be in bed rite now u knw...well, the reason i woke at 8 am in the morning was because someone woke me up by phone...someone called me...its the same person as the other day...but today i'm not angry at him...in fact,i'm pleased...we talked some time for about 11 minutes...haha its his phone...so much for his money...but i guess he didnt mind...he's sweet...and we talked when i was still half awake...and of course it became a weird and funny conversation...well coz i'm not fully awake yet so i heard wrong soo many times and talked rubbishly...hahaha...it was quite a joke...and it did wake me up fully...and now i'm kinda having an unusual good mood...cheerful unlike always...and i smiled a lot...and laughed too...and today ma fren is going out to watch movie...its a pity i cant go with her but i guess something good came out of it...i dont have to confront him...haha...i dont think i can after what he did...i still can accept him as my fren back but i dont think that hanging out with him is such a good idea...plus, i dont want my good mood to be busted by him...no thnx... and well its a good thing that she's finally has the chance to go out with the stucked-up-nose guy...hahahaha...i wish u guys to have fun and i hope it'll work out...well i guess thats it for now...i'll see u around..toodles...! eww disgusting! hahaha...ok tata...

kashif...

2006-12-02T01:07:00.000-08:00

hari nie aku g nilai 3 sbb mak nk bli brg2 ntuk along...then aku dapat bli beg bru for next year...klu x slp aku aku bli beg quick silver...wane biru la...of course la an...sbb lgpun beg skunk nie besar gedabak...mmg x ssuai ntuk pompuan cam aku...so aku bli la beg yg aku ske...yg d tulisan2...then ktorg g mkn kat seremban...mkn kat restoran minang...tp seriously aku x ske mkn kat situ sbb layanan die x bgs lngsung...aku x ske...hurm...forget bout that...then aku blk...smyg2 sume...then aku online...d 2 emel dri kashif...he is so so so sweet...the emel he gave me r soo lovely...its bout frens...he gave me d same emel...maybe he didnt realise it he sent twice...he is really a great fren...each time i chat with him, he is very polite n very sweet...he is such a great fren...sometimes he even give me advice...n i'm flattered when he do that...he's 19...i happy to hv him as my fren...that's for sure...hihi...

hahahahaha

2006-12-01T04:36:00.000-08:00

hurm...hari nie aku bgn cam agak awal dri biase...sbbnye de org kejut aku ngan cara yg agak menyakitkan ati aku...die anta voicesms yg kosong kat aku...phm2 je la ble voicesms msk mesti d ringtone n ble aku jwb xd bende pown yg die ckp....banyak kli plak tu die wat cmtu...n aku cam agak geram tdo aku diganggu an...then last skali aku angkat tuh akhirnye die ckp...isi percakapan die tuh sket tp membangunkan aku dri mamai dgn segarnye...die ckp 'oi anak dara bgn la...' n aku pown trus segar dgn geramnye...lepas tuh aku bgn trus n mandi...ms tuh dlm kul lbh kurg 9 pg r...n aku pun bgn n msk meggi je sbb xd bende nk mkn...aku pun cam biase tgk tv...aku ingat nk sapu an tapi then angah turun...terbantut niat...lps aku da turun tuh aku bg msg kat dak yg kejut aku tuh dgn rs geramnye an...n lps tuh aku cam rs menyesal so i said sory but then die pun cm xnk lyn n aku pun trus x lyn...okla watea la an...skali kwn lame aku si acap tuh bg msg kat aku...n yg x bley blah nye die bley ckp yg aku da x ingat die n aku d pkwe bru!eeee bdk tu aku eeeee ntah la an... dlu aku msg n kol die,die yg xnk lyn skunk leh lg ckp yg aku da lupe kat die!siap bley tmbh yg aku d pkwe bru!mmg mlampau...mlampau...mmg mlampau...lps tuh aku d ty die, die smpn lg x jam pooh yg aku bg tuh an tp die cam senyp je n x bls...so aku pown senyp je cam 'ok fine'...die xnk jwb xpe...then ptg tuh aku cam wat video ntuk dibg kat mas...n ble aku tgk blk...aku cam x caye tu aku au...sbb cam laen gler...aku x sngka aku cam hurm...da brubah?well aku tgk muke aku sore aku cam len gler...cam aku x knl...n mmg aku ssh nk caye tu aku...sbb mmg cam aku x knal...n cara aku ckp pun...aku x sngke seklakar tuh...mmg ble aku dgr blk sbb d time tuh aku tunjuk kat mas poster naruto aku n aku cam 'ter'excited n mmg lwk gler sore aku tuh!!!jd sblm nie ms aku gler2 psl naruto sume mmg urgh memalukan btol! hahahaha bru aku sdr skunk...betapa slame nie aku da begitu byk memalukan dri aku sdri...hahahahahahaha

cuti...

2006-11-29T11:06:00.000-08:00

hurm...aku x tau nk ckp cuti kali nie bes ke x...well...first thing yg aku bwat bile da cuti was packed things untuk g kem 2 hari 3 mlm tuh...den lps balik dri kem aku byk kuar mkn mlm...first kat 'asampedas' then kat 'sup adabi' then lastly kat 'burger king'...mmg kirenye tmpt tuh sume mkn sedap2 la...wlupun ms tuh aku tgh sakit an tapi tetap rs kesedapan makanan tuh...so mmg sedap la kirenye...sejak kuar mkn kat 'burger king' tuh aku da x kuar2 dah...except ms nk cri brg hantaran along...n aku duk rumah bwat nothing...bosan tahap cipan tol...skunk nie pown tgh bosan so tulis ngarut2 kat blog nieyh...hurm...

summer camp???

2006-11-26T03:38:00.000-08:00

ok lets start with yesterday's story; sorry bout this coz yesterday i had no mood to post anything... well it seems to me that yesterday reminded me a lot of the summer camp i went last sunday... first, the song sang by saleem entitled 'suci dalam debu' was heard through the number one radio in malaysia,era of course...why it reminds me of summer camp?well one of the song i learnt there entitled 'azam yang suci' used 'suci dalam debu's soundtrack to liven it...and its one of the most touching songs i have ever sang in my life... second, that night when my parents and i went out for dinner at burger king using along's car we heard another song that i have learnt which is '5 cinta'...then third, we heard another song that my group,kasih 5, performed the day before the programme ended which is 'sing children of the world'...

brubah ke x???

2006-11-24T06:14:00.000-08:00

cam x brubah pown...mksd aku diri aku la...cme aku rs aku x mudah naik angin je skrg...n bgn pagi pun da cpt skit...hehehe...ok la tu kan...kt bukannye boleh berubah mendadak...slow n steady r...tp...nmpknye bibit2 kemarahan mak sudah mule muncul...nie yg aku xnk nie...aku tau...klu leh mak nk aku brubah trus lepas blk kem tuh...aku pun mmg nk brubah...tp xd la hundred percent immediately lps blk kem tu kan...x larat la aku...x mampu aku lakukannye...maybe aku xkn dpt capai expectation mak n abah hundred percent but i'll do it bit by bit...

boredom, when will u end...

2006-11-22T19:39:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling totally bored rite now...this boredom has now lasts for 2 days...ouh i wish this boredom would end...no...!i should end this boredom with my own hands...!there are lots of things that i could do to fill up my time but i didnt do it...urghh...really...!i must change!hey miaka...!u must change!dont waste your precious time fooling around and do nothing, pondering when will this boredom would end...no...!!!u must do something yourself...!dont waste your holiday lazing around in the house...!come on miaka!wake up!!!get up now!!!pull yourself together!!!wake up...!!!

da blk...

2006-11-21T19:11:00.000-08:00

helo...aku bru blk mlm td...ngantok sgt2...ye la mane x ngantok,aku tdo 2 jam lebih je last day kat sane...group aku slalu lmbt tdo...bes la gak an...aku xnk ckp pe2 psl kem tuh...yg tu biar la antra aku ngan bdk2 kem tuh...huhu...

kem...

2006-11-18T02:40:00.000-08:00

hurm...nie post last sblm aku pegi kem slame 3 hari...hurm...nk ckp pe eh??? ntah r... well kt tgk je la nnti aku brbh ke x lps g kem tuh...

who am i to them???

2006-11-16T03:48:00.000-08:00

today we went home really late because we missed d first bus...we kinda waited 4 hours...and she was going crazy like heaven...i just stayed cool coz i was not in a mood 2 feel anything...i got out of d bus around 5 and i just got dressed simply n went to zati's house...yana didnt come coz it's too late...n d moment i arrived my frens had gone home...farisa said sop when home coz his gf wasn't going to come...so he went home with bal n syed...n i went to zati's home alone...like a stranger who just lost his way...i'm angry wif those 3...especially sop...he came coz he thought his gf would come n when he found out that she isnt comin he just left like that...he doesnt even cared 4 his frens(which was me who came late) not that i want him to wait me and see him but it proven with his action that he never care-less bout other people except his gf...he talked to me just when he needed to know what happen to his gf...my god...!he's using me again...!!!he's using me to get info bout his gf...!!!i just thought dat i could befrens with him again like usual...but it seems it just would work out with his selfish attitude...!!!now i seriously think dat i cant get along with him if he still like dat...really...n yea 1 more thing...bout bal...he didnt even asked me anything...why i was late...weather if i come or not...or even inform me he had to go home coz it was late...he said nothing...!!! na'a...i was thinking ' why is he like this???am i not HIS fren???arent he worried???' i mean pls...!does he really thinks i'm his fren...or he just take my frenship for granted??? tolonglah...! aku btl2 x thn la ngan keadaan cam nieh...bg aku frenship 2 sumting big au...sumting serious...sumting that MUST NOT be taken for granted...!!! i'm really fedup with his care-less-attitude...! he never takes this frenship thing seriously...he just take it for granted...thats not d kind of frenship i want or gave to others... no...!

bad mud...

2006-11-15T04:24:00.000-08:00

hari nie aku bad mud gler2...aku bengang sgt ble aku da wat open house n dorg plak nk merosakkan mud aku yg sibuk menyediakan things ntk open house tuh...n i truly know how u feel yana...aku paham sgt2...baygkan aku in d process siapkan sume2 tuh n titibe dorg x jd nk dtg sbb hujan...i mean 'excuse me! aela...! rmh dorg dkt jer... laen la rmh dorg berbatu2 jauh aku x heran!' nie dkt pown x nk dtg...pe susah, tnggu je la hujan berhenti...payung mcm la xd...pastu boleh lak bal kt kat aku dlm hp ' wat esok r...' aku mcm 'what the heck is he talking about??!!aku da siapkan sume2 n die nk aku wat esok je la?! no way!' aku x kira die kna dtg gak...!sop lak lg satu mslh...!die lmbt sbb pe???TERTIDUR... pls take note ok...DIE TERTIDUR...! urghh!!! my goodness...! die tau hari nie aku wat open house die leh tertido...?nmpk sgt die amik remeh bende nie...sng2 xyah dtg...!geram aku la...!!! merosakkan mud aku jer!!!da la mud aku da dirosakkan oleh dak due ekor tuh...N... tmbh2 lagi bal x gtau aku yg die da nk couple...aku grm!!! mrh sgt2!!! bukan sbb die nk couple ngan dak ntah mne aku x knl...bkn la nk kt aku jeles...tp die x bgtau aku pown...!!!tu yg aku grm sgt2!!!n ble x t'bngkar pown die x nk cter ngan aku!!!aku nk tau...!!!eeee bal nie jahat tau...!!!same je ngan sop tu!!!mmg padan la jd kwn dorg tuh!!!

perang idea...

2006-11-14T05:01:00.000-08:00

hurm...mane nk mule eh...?ok r memandangkan aku da bg tajuk dier perang idea, aku cter psl tu dlu...sbenarnye cmni...ms aku n mas nk g bli fail dier komplen yg aku nie da brubh la mcm2 r lakan...so smpai kat klas ktorg smbng blk...n kebanyakannye psl hubungan ktorg yg cam d kekosongan skit nie r...tp mostly perang psl idea die psl farhan n idea aku psl azim...mmg ssh btl nk lawan ckp ngan die nieh...penat aku memerah otak memikirkan idea n menyusun ayat2 power...seboleh2nye aku try wat die lupekan dendam mgarut die psl farhan tuh...die lak argue psl aku cmne aku benci dak azim tuh...mslhnye...die x tau yg aku da x benci die n aku da siap apology lg...so zati klu ko bc nie ko tau r aku d mintak maaf ngan azim...mmg x sngka r aku leh wat cmtuh kan...ayat tu kuar titibe...well die pown terkejut gak ble aku ckp sori psl pe aku wat kat die kan n aku pown cam ssh nk caye aku mintak maaf kat dak yg cam taboo bg aku...hmm pjg tul kan...n akhirnye mas pown trime nasihat aku n maafkan farhan n janji x try to forget the dendam...n last skali jamuan klas...mmg syox!!! wlupun game x brape successful tp mmg bes gler r...ble nyanyi lagu hepy bday tuh mmg smngt gler2 n so aku assume mmg sume org puas ati(or maybe x sume)...tp yg aku grm gler2 is ngan 'fran...' tuh...die x byr duit...n die dtg party...n die mkn lg dgn muke temboknye...N DIE X TLG SKIT POWN...aku GERAM GLER2 psl tuh...n lg stu die dgn slambe nye ngaku kat cikgu yg DIE DA BYR DUIT KLAS...like DUH!!! WHAT THE HECK IS SHE THINKING??!! MMG MUKE TEMBOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

grm...

2006-11-12T22:43:00.000-08:00

aku geram...geram...geram ngan dak dua rang tuh...geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram x1000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tralalas...

2006-11-12T06:25:00.000-08:00

it has been a while since i last chat in ICQ...i'm longing to chat again...but...i forgot the address so i think and i think and i think and i think....until 'pop'!i remembered back the name of the chatting place...ICQ...so i chat again and got few addresses from god-knows-who...and i added them on my msn...so now my list of 'other contacts' has increased by 10 people...one of them was a korean girl...i already have a swedish and american friends...and now a korean friend...and 3 unknown ids...eh no...2 unknown ids...ok that's all...actually i'm bored...nothing good to say...

life...

2006-11-11T23:06:00.000-08:00

life is a complex thing...life without problems and obstacles are no more than an empty shell...those are essential to colour one's life...pain and suffering, joy and happiness...those things are facts of life...no one can change that...life is dull without them...enduring pain and overcoming obstacles makes a person tougher than before and matured oneself...those what makes a person, person...if a life is a never-ending-happiness type, what's the point pain created for this world...if one's life is joyful and no worries, what's the point suffering is sent upon human's life...all those soul-killing things will grow a person into a stronger being inside out...all the life-experienced would make someone more matured mentally and emotionally...happiness is bestowed upon human lives as an achivement and victory after overcoming the storm of sadness, waves-crashing pain and heart-throbbing suffering...happiness is like a light that would shine after a disastrous hurricane...that would change one's life forever...you live only for today...not for yesterday which has gone and had became a past...and not for tomorrow which you never know wether it comes or what will happen...you just live for today alone and today only, pronto! so live your everyday-life to the fullest and make the best out of it...do as many deed that you can, fulfill your prayers to the highest peak of concentration, make the most happiness out of the people around you and achieve as many dreams as you can...

today...

2006-11-10T04:18:00.000-08:00

the past couple of days, he didn't came to school but today he did...i didn't get to talked to him...not that i don't want to but judging from the awkward situation; someone who i nearly like but i don't like anymore, i didn't even said hi...it seemed to me that he was avoiding me...all the times that i saw him were mostly his back...i never had a chance to even made eye contact with him...well maybe i'm just thinking too much...well that's normal i guess...i'm always like that so i'm not surprised...the feelings that i feel towards him are the same i feel towards wan...if i miss seeing him as if i miss seeing wan...if i'm happy because of him as if i'm happy because of wan...i look at him the same way i look at wan...as a friend...people may judge him as a bad-natured and flirty guy...but to me he is a sweet, cute and considerate person...others never experienced the same moments that i did with him...i may have thought selfish things bout him but that don't change the fact that he is my friend...nobody can change my opinion bout someone because its my perspective of others...nothing that i think would be the same with other peoples' thought...don't judge a book by its cover they always say...this is one of them...to me he has the ability to make someone feel loved and wanted because he knows that people love attention... he has his good qualities as a friend...others also have their own good and bad qualities as my friends...its the moments i had with them that made each of my friends different from one another and special in their own way...

a new day...

2006-11-09T04:46:00.001-08:00

today is a new day...i begin with no heart-feelings to anyone and being bright with full confidence, asking for forgiveness for what had i done the day before...one thing that i thought i could never done thousands years to come, something that for the first time my best friend told me that she is very proud with me, which was made an apology to the most ever-time-hated person i had with in my entire life...it came out of the blue, my words of apology...he looked confused and can't seemed to believe what was happening...i don't blame him...i don't expected it either...my friend can't seem to stop from smiling and feeling proud of my action...i smiled and felt warm inside because she never told me she was proud wih me before...ever...this is the first time and i just knew i could never been wrong to have chosen her as a friend who can lead me to the right path...i am proud of her the whole time and i'm proud being her friend...

alhamdulillah...

2006-11-08T04:18:00.000-08:00

aku rasa semuanye akan berubah lepas hari ini... mmg mula2 aku rasakan kat sklah td aku xd feeling...aku rasa semacam ble sedar yg die x dtg...mmg aku akui td aku cam rs kosong...aku msh x brape jelas ngan perasaan aku sendiri...aku msh tercari2...keliru ngan mainan perasaan yg sedang bergelut dlm diri aku antara logik akal dan hawa nafsu...diri yg menagih perhatian dri ssorg yg sudi memberikan perhatian yg aku nak...namun aku sedar yg ramai x mungkin menyukai ape yg aku buat...n aku sdri pun klu ikut logik akal aku, aku x nk bende nie berlaku kan...sudah termaktub dalam hidup aku sekarang yg dengan jelasnye menyatakan bhw 'no feeling2 ok...!' tapi diri aku yg semmgnye sukekan perhatian yg diberikan inginkn perhatian tuh jd akibatnye hati aku hmpir2 trjebak dlm gamble yg x spatutnye...mmg aku rs kekosongan td kat sklh n aku berperangai pelik sehingga menimbulkan rasa risau dalam klngan rakan2 aku yg prihatin...yana, mas, jaja, chan, n jonathan(maybe d lg tp aku x prasan) dorg sume risau tgk aku td n aku rs bertuah ble dorg ambil berat ngan keadaan aku tp aku rs bersalah sbb wat dorg risau ngan keadaan aku yg x menentu...aku ms tuh stil dlm proses merungkai simpulan2 dlm kepale aku...tgh berfikir...tp bwk masalah pulak kat kwn2 aku...n rasa kekosongan tu telah membawa aku ntk join dak2 laki n meninggalkan kwn2 aku n x menghiraukan dorg...skrg ble da muhasabah blk aku rs bersalah sbb x mempedulikan dorg...aku mcm tuh start dri blk dri library time BI kna relieve smpai blk...x patut aku wat cm2...ok esok aku akan mintak maaf ngan dorg n ucap tq sbb risaukan aku...especially jaja n jonathan...jonathan la aku x sngka die pun akan risau ngan keadaan aku...n aku akan terangkan sumenye pd yana...ble blk rmh n check hp, aku tgk d miskol dri die...so aku miskol blk...n die kol jap gne tefon rmh...n ktorg saling bls bbrape msg...n ms tuh la aku sdr yg everything between me and him is going to change after today onwards...aku da yakin skrg ngan hati aku just sbb lps die anta msg ckp 'da la wei aku mls nak ckp ngan kau...'lps bc msg die tu seolah2 aku da dpt ketetapan hati aku...aku x rs grm ngan die sbb xnk hiraukan aku malah aku rs relief sangat...that's when i know that sumenye akan brubah slps hari nie...aku x perlu sukakan die hanye krn perhatian yg die berikan kat aku selama beberape bln yg lepas...aku bru start kwn ngan die thn nie...lgpun aku xleh terpesong drpd niat aku...bg aku dia nie sweet n cute but that doesn't mean i have to like him after he gave attention to me...bukan la aku memilih yg dak cam die xleh kna pilih dak yg pndai gler2...no!!! i'm not that type of person...lgpun kt stil blajar so x perlu terburu2...lgpown yana 4 sure xkn trime...n yg len2 pown...nie bru sorg je yg mmpu menggoncang hati batu aku x lg thn2 dpn bru thn nie aku jd hati batu da d yg mmpu m'goncangnye...ntk thn2 mendatang aku xkn cepat mengaku kalah...!!!

lalalala...

2006-11-07T04:45:00.000-08:00

it has been 3 days since i last update my blog... but honestly it felt like days before i last update it...seems like i'm already addicted to write in my blog...hmm how should i start huh?what can i say bout my last 3 days hmm...well 3 days ago i went to my friend's house...the same routine continued until today...my granma was like a volcano about to erupt...well the cloud of dust already made the surrounding hazy...and i just runaway to save my life...of course safety first...!i mean what is wrong if i go to my friends' house anyway...?its not like i did something shameful or anything...man...this is really sucks...my life is like being hovered by flies each day...one fly is more than enough to irritate me...let alone thousands of them...my ears are going deaf hearing the sounds of those files' wings buzzing nonstop...i could blew off any second if i dont stay put...well its kinda boring to go to school...but its much2 boring to stay home and do nothing and hears to flies buzzing in my ears...

saturday evening...

2006-11-04T05:05:00.000-08:00

today i fast, continuing the six-day-fast in syawal...today is my fifth day whereas my parents fast for their last day...well i skipped one day on thursday because i want to go to my friend's house... this evening, just now bal called me and asked to get out of my house for a while...well it hinted me that he was already outside,waiting...so i went out and found him waiting on a motor with his younger sister and brother on the motor...so i asked him what's up...and i was like beaming at him when he showed me naruto's cad in his hand...he asked me dont you want any? so i just opened the gate and took a look at the cards...and i was smiling all over again and choosed the coolest cards i want...so i took two...and gave him two ringgit...actually i was kind of afraid because one of my neighbours saw him talking to me...and i dont like the look on their faces...it was like i'm a bad kid who dates many guys and dont have good attitude...like i'm a spoilt child and do bad things behind my parents back...but i'm not like that...!he is just a friend...my best friend that is...so it is not wrong when he comes to see me for a reason(or for no reason)...he's just a friend...that's all...not like he was my special boyfriend or anything...the thing is i just dont like it they look at me 'that way'...well he came to tell me that his open house is not on the day after last school day...it's tomorrow...well tomorrow is going to be a busy day so i hope i can make it to his open house...

crisis...

2006-11-02T21:16:00.000-08:00

yesterday me zati yana bal sop n syed went to farisa's house for hari raye... well me zati n yana arrive there quite early not like the others... they had something to do... so we help ourselves first... after all im hungry back then... urghhh what a boring story...!!! well most importantly i SAW everything that happen yesterday... but i dont knw why she didnt realise that... maybe she's just too shy n nervous to realise anything... well wateva... hmm actually im not really in d mood today... eventhough i seems fine at school just now... well maybe bcoz of my prob... now i hv nothing to keep frm her.... she knws my feelings now... all of them... i really didnt care if she take note or not... d reason i didnt tell her before is that i dont want to make she feel quilty... thats all... but i really dont care if she thinks bad of me... but it seems she didnt care to be angry... but she had acspected that it would happen like this... meaning that the incident will effect people especially me and the other one... so i guess she had prepared for it... i felt good now that she knows everything... even bout my new prob... hahaha... that new prob is really a puzzling one... well for me of course but maybe puzzling is not the rite word well i dont knw how to describe it... hehe... and it seems that 'the idea' had never cross her mind before so she really doesnt want me to get involve... well duh! even i dont want too... i really dont knw how it happen but i realised bout it JUST NOW... and thank goodness its not too troblesome yet... so me and her r praying for the best... well yeah me too...!

hmm...

2006-11-01T04:23:00.000-08:00

yesterday i slept early... 8.45 pm i was already on my queen bed... snuggle myself wif 'kyo' the teddy bear... hehe... well wateva but i really was very tired and so i slept till 5 am the next day... life at school today was ok i guess... i got 2 papers today and the results were ok... everything looks fine until i got a phone call frm syed( an old fren who i never talked to before and of course not so close) he told me that he, bal n sop would wnt to raye(hehe xleh blah) at my house so i was like 'huh??? raye kat rmh aku???mmm ok je la...) so i said yes... i thought only 3 people BUT after that bal called me and said there were actually 18 people...!!! and i was totally shocked(of course)...! but i got ready anyway... and i asked for zati's help... and so they came... they filled up my living room and there was no space for me to fit in... so i just stand at the stairs watching them talking and laughing among themselves... i really dont knw what to do after served them drinks and cookies and shaked hands wif the girls who mostly i dont know... so i just watch them like a play being act just especially for me... after they're gone i called bal to talked to him... well its been a long time since i last called him so its a good reason for me to call him then... so we talked like usual... and its quite nice a feeling to talk to him again like frens should be... hmm tomorrow we will burst into farisa's house... if everyone gives green light that is...

first day back to school...

2006-10-31T03:56:00.000-08:00

today i woke up like always but what's different wif me is that i'm so pumped up to go to school... and thats a weird thing... and the worst part was we had to start the first day back to school by listening to some dental speech... well duh...its only half an hour plus wif the power point... i bet she wants to end it quickly just like we want to... then we go back to normal school life... well i really thought that we would be getting our papers today but it seems it didnt went like i thought it would be... i brought the 'jeruk thing' for my frens... and they ate them like wow! esspecially jaja... then we(me mas n yana) played tutup botol... i forgot the other name... i had expected that we would get our science paper today... and i somehow manage to get A... although 5 points lesser than mid-term... but ok i guess coz its an A... n i somehow manage to beat levonne... hmm quite a thing... heh... i'm suppose to get same marks wif chan but coz of the addition n deduction i've got... i'm lower than her... but that doesnt make any changes... just b'coz i HAD to be sincere so i'm lower than her... AND she thought that i wan to add marks...! like duh...! i told her that its not like what she thinks... good thing she realized it after that... but i'm stil below john... my god fiza! this is just science paper...! not including OTHER papers YET... mmm well me n kucai fulfilled our promises today... hmm good... n whats more... someone got chocolate frm him... wow... chocolate... sweet...! its a pity i'm fasting today if not i can have a share too... huh... ah no big deal...!

boring day...

2006-10-30T05:10:00.000-08:00

hmm... after a week of holiday i feel weird coz tomorrow i'll be going to school... mmm nothing much happen today... just some guys came to my house but of course i didnt open the door and ignore them... though i didnt make any noise coz i didnt want them to realize there was someone in the house... but then i realized that they were just going to give me a hamper but of course they didnt gave it to me coz they didnt realize i exist anyway ok stop it! hmm... when its 3.30 pm i quickly change the chanel... then i remember sumthing... 'man! the remote cntrl isnt working right! so how's i'm suppose to change the subtitle...?' well duh! of course i got to borrow frm someone and that someone is zati of course... so i called her... but then... bustered! she's not home... can i borrow frm her sis??? arghh forget the damn remote...! so i just watched ah meng WITHOUT the subtitle and i was like... 'what are talking about???' coz i dont understand a word they saying... but i still get the hang of it... a bit though... i know that qi yue's mom is suspitous(is this the correct spelling?? i bet not) bout their relationship now and the teacher is together again wif his girlfren and ah meng swore in front of qi yue's dad grave that he will protect qi yue no matter what happen n much2 more... oh well there's nothing much that i can do at home... i thought i want to download anime wallpaper BUT my pendrive is missing...! ah... must be my bro who took it... humphh... well so much wif the downloading thing... oh brother...! but well! ah meng is cute after all! and i like it...! hehehehe... but man its soo boring...! but when i think bout school i feel lots of butterflies want to get out frm my stomach and its an awful feel n i dnt like at all... you knw why? yeah damn rite...! coz i thought bout my exam results... ok ok stop! dont want to think anymore... want to watch tv or do filling-my-stomach mission... tata...

akhirnya...

2006-10-29T04:13:00.000-08:00

akhirnya aku dapat gak msk net... stlah beberape hari aku try msk at last hari nie dpt gak msk... net kat rmh aku nie gile skit... smlm g open house rmh syafiq x rmai sgt r yg aku jmpe... aku jmpe syfq, julien, choy, yu weng fei, chan wai nam, chantelly and blaise... x byk pun yg aku bual ngan dorg... d la gak julien tnye aku psl levonne... aku tnye dia psl ian n dia... 2 je r... aku byk bual2 ngan zati n farisa... cam ktorg lak yg da lama x jumpe... hehehe... n then balik... mlm tuh aku raye kat rmh acik... n then tdo tuh aku x hrp sgt dpt tgk fruit basket... sbb klu hrp sgt aku mesti x dpt tgk... so pagi td aku dpt tgk... the last episod... sian sgt kat kyo... menakutkan btl rupe dia dlm bntuk monster... n then tohru tngkan dia... n kyo tukar blk jd diri dia n for the first time aku tgk kyo nangis... n for d first time adik 'tngkap' aku nangis dpn tv... huhuhu... well i cant stop myself frm crying though coz its soo touching and sad... akito pun tohru dpt lembutkan hati dia... n that's the end... for fruit basket... and of course they live happily ever after forever...

cam x caya...

2006-10-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

smlm an aku x dpt tdo au... sebenarnye aku tunggu klu2 d org anta msg cm slalu tp xd je... so aku anta r voicesms kat kwn aku... aku ckp kat dia yg aku dpt voicesms dri ssorg... dia rakam lagu my heart gne voicesms anta kat aku... aku rs bes sgt sbb dia wat cmtu... x pnh d org wat cmtu kat aku... n aku rs hepy sgt huhu... so aku gtau r dia an... lps lama2 tuh dia miskol aku... aku tnye dia asl miskol? dia ckp aku miskol dia td... rupenye dia x prasan aku anta voicesms... aku suro la dia dgr... punye lama aku tnggu komen dia... last2 dia anta msg ckp dia t'anta msg yg dia nk bg aku kat kwn yg bg lagu my heart kat aku...! aku pe lagi... cuak x kepalang...!!! aku trs kol kwn aku n tnye pe yg dia tls dlm msg tuh... dia ckp r dia tls bes r awk dpt msg tuh dri ... so aku cm... nani???!!! oh my god...!!! dia da r tls name kwn aku tuh n anta lak kat kwn aku tuh... aduhai... pe la kwn aku tu pikiak... adeh mak... dia x abis2 ckp sori ngn aku... aku pun cm... huh... pe blh wat... tapi alamak ai... serius aku cuak gler n of course r malu beb...! ntah pe dia pikir... tu je yg aku 'mabuk' nieh...

halu...!!!

2006-10-26T21:02:00.000-07:00

wah wah wah... akhirnye aku dapat gak wat post... stelah lame ku menunggu dapat gak aku tulis... nk balik dri kg satu hal... nk tunggu internet nie ok lek satu hal... banyak btl bende yg aku nk tulis... kk kt tgk list yg aku da wat kat hp aku eh eh... hehehe... jap eh aku check... alamak jap bc msg lak... mmm byk gak aku tls eh... tahun mmg laen skit au... aku tgk along rajin x mcm thn2 laen... beria2 btl along kemas rmh kg... pelik aku seketika... n ms blk dri rmh atok kabus tebal btl... hampir2 x nmpk jln... agak menakutkan duh... ble aku pdg blakang keta fuh gelap gler...! n angah bwk laptop die an n d cter naruto n bleach dlm tuh... so dlm kebosanan menanti sedara yg x blk2 tuh aku tgk r cter2 tuh... n lagi ms mlm raye tuh last pose tuh... aku pening btl au ngan sorg bdk nih... dia men2 ngan aku tahap maut ah... ssh btl nk predict pe dia akn wat... ntah pe de dlm kpala otak dia tuh... pas tuh ari pe eh...? x slp aku ari mlm raye kedua a'ah yep... mlm tuh pun same dia men2 ngan aku tahap mengancam... kah kah kah... ayat aku ni xlah blah kan... tp dia nie wat cuak aku je... geram pun d gak tp biase la tuh... dia tu mmg cmtu... n hah!!! nie aku nk story nieh... mmm ble eh aaa ms ari raye kn lps aku raye2 kat rmh atok n blk tuh tgh nk isi blk kueh tuh... titibe pakteh mntk tlg aku tngkap gmbr famili dorg... aku pun 'alamak...! pe die...! biar betik...! tngkap gmbr famili die...! da la x biase duh...!' aku cm da cuak gler kn tp 4 sure r aku menten je kat luar xkn nk tunjuk aku cuak kt mk teh pk teh abg syafiq abg faidz kak mira n muaz kn.... so aku pun tngkap la gak dua kli tp ya allah! tgn aku lak xleh menten... t'ketar2 tgn aku tp aku try wat seslumber yg bole... tngkap la gak an tp ntah cntik ntah x... tp mslhnye aku x ambil pluang...! ah siot tul...! alamak t'ckp ckp siot lak...klu yana bc mesti dia komplen aku amik p'ktaan dia... hehe... n raye kli nie pon aku xtra terbuka ngan spupu spapat aku... hehe tiga org je sbenarnye... mlm second last puase aku story mcm2 ngan ayin lgpun ms tuh dia je geng aku ms tuh... ari raye second aku story lak ngan dik-brdik due rang tuh... siap b'tukar2 hp... hehe... n aku rs cucu pk ngah kowt... comel btl!!! aku layan je dia ckp... sumting yg aku jarang wat ngan bdk yg aku x knl... n d last story is bout d cat... hurmphh... mne nk strat eh... mlm tuh raye ikut abh g rmh sdra mara... n smpai kt satu rmh nie... aku msk n then d satu kucing nih aku pdg je r ingat kucing mne sst msk rmh bsr gedabak tuh... tp sume org cm slumber jeh... n dia g kat d atuk tuh n dia pnjt kat kerusi mewah yg tuk tu ddk... aku cm plik sgt2... tame gler kucing nih... very intimate n very obedient ngan tuk tuh aku rs tergugat sgt... ngan cara atuk tuh jaga kucing (pas dgr cter cik mne tah) aku rs cam aku nie bukan tuan yg bgs lngsung pd anyau... sedih gler aku mlm tuh...

hurm...

2006-10-20T05:33:00.000-07:00

ari xd pe yg aku leh wat sgt... td bgn lmbt... biase la da x skolah... leh la tdo... n then kluarga busu dtg n... n aku pun cam kaku je sbb da lama x jumpe... so aku diam je r... n aku tnggu cter ah meng ngan penuh sabar... tu je la satu2nye penghibur aku ari nih... n x lupa inuyasha... hehe... urghh... mmg bosan gler... n aku cam da x dpt tahan tp nasib baek da topup leh la msg ngan kwn2... tp... cam agak x dilayan gak... so bertambah bosan la aku... naruto n bleach pun da xd sambungan i mean angah da x download lagi so... bosan sgt... hmm... smlm zati da bg aku kad raya kat skolah... n lagi sorang bal da bagi ari rabu... pastu ecah bagi aku e-card tahun nie x byk dapat... n smlm d la gak aku tlg mak wat kuih raya... coklat berkacang... tp aku x bp suka kuih tuh... sbb cam pahit... byk sgt coklat kot... n aku x suka kacang... tp aku tlg je la... pnt2 mak wat... n nanti aku mkn la gak... hurm... pe lagi nak ckp eh... skin nie x bape bgs sgt sbb kecik n x leh komen... tapi aku amik pun sbb sakura n syaoran yg cute gler tuh... huhu...

ngantoknye...

2006-10-19T09:04:00.000-07:00

urghhh... sbenarnye aku da ngantok nie tapi memandangkan kna jaga adik bah n mak kuar so xleh tdo lagi... n da xleh tdo bosan lak... citer kat tv x best sbb ari nie ari kamis...(aku ingat d supernatural tp xd pun...) n so aku pun wat keputusan nk tulis blog...(wlupun sbenarnye aku xnk tulis ari nie tp sbb bosan punye psl...) anyway ari aku abis periksa sbenarnye n aku gak happy hanya krn satu sbb iaitu dpt tgk ah meng dgn tng... huhu...(wlupun sbenarnye ble tgk ms periksa tng gak xd beza pun...) tp yela lps da tgk ah meng which is from devil besides you chanel 19 kul 3.30 ptg aku rs beban lak sbb kna baca buku lps tuh tp no hal sbenarnye sj aku nk wat citer... blajar nie d time2 syok dia n d yg x... cm ble kna baca buku sejarah mmg bosan sangat2... sbb aku x minat sejarah... aku suka math and sc... geog bc ala kadar je konon2nye senang tp x sngka lak agak susah... agak banyak la soalan yg aku tngglkan wat last2... mmg x disangka... math ketas dua lak cm agak kibut tp aku rasa ketas satu boleh la ok aku x stuck2 tp d careless mistake yg nasib baik aku perasan... then merdeka... yeyh.......yeyh....... wateva... lps periksa dlm kepala otak aku hanya pikir nk buku baru buku baru je... yana lak asyik pikir nk kumpul cd kumpul cd je... td aku call dia mau x lama ckp... nnti ble kuar bil for sure abah akn sound aku.. huhu... n td aku report kat yana yg abah aku ckp dia terlupa nk bwk blk borg summer camp...mknenye... aku kna pegi tp aku xnk... sbb xd sape nk teman... da la dua bulan... abis cuti aku cmtu je... huhu xnk... isk... isk... isk... buhuhuhuh... i dont want... td aku terpikir tau yg aku nk tulis dalam bi untuk blogger aku tp bukan slalu la just for practising... sometimes je r... shut down la otak aku klu stiap kli pun nk tulis bi... aku doa aku x yah g summer camp... amin... hmm... pe lagi nk tulis eh... hurhhh... ble abah nk balik nie... da 12 lebih r nie... ngantok gler nie... adik syok je tdo... humph... hehe... tadi aku tgk ah meng... hihi dia mmg comel btl... suka sangat... wlupun kdg2 menyakitkan ati tp dia nie sbenarnye baik sangat n comel sgt...

puh...

2006-10-18T02:40:00.000-07:00

hurm... sejarah tadi mmg siot susah gler n td 4 d first time aku wat karangan bm yg plg lama... meaning that aku pay more attention to this than last times... n how i could not pay attention when i wrote bout anyau, rite...? well damn rite... well aku da janji ngan diri sendiri mlm smlm yg aku akn try not to crack up... well i almost did it today untill i cracked up a little just now at home... n a bit feeling of anger surged up inside me when for d upmhhteen(dont know how much) time 'they' called me half-matured AGAIN... owh how i wish i hadnt told them bout the 'kyo'thing... urghhh...! (not angry just... i dont know)

hee...geramnye...!!!

2006-10-16T23:47:00.000-07:00

eee...!!! aku geram sangat2...! geram sangat...! tadi sblm seni start aku geram btl... mula2 tuh aku tnjuk la kat dorg aku nye puncher(betul ke eja nie...?) n then dorg pun try la kat tisu tau... then shazwan dtg... dia pun tgk skali... pastuh fatin ckp... 'ee hafizah dia pun d puncher la... ee ade jodoh la...' n then aku ckp la 'x nk la...' kn sbb aku ingat dia ejek aku n shazwan skali aku t'pikir(ntah2...) n aku tnye sape d puncher...? n dorg ckp bdk tuh pastuh aku jerit kat dorg 'jangan la...!!! x suka la!!! pe jodoh2 nie...!!!' aku realize yg dorg ckp d puncher tuh bukan shazwan tp bdk ngok tue...pastuh aku mngamuk(ikut kt yana) kt dorg... eee x suka la maen jodoh2 lak slambe dia je ckp pastuh da aku ngamuk tuh leh lak atira ckp yg aku nie emo what d *ell??!! pastu aku kuarkan lg glitters(glitters ke...?) yg aku bli tu n puncher aku yg laen... pastu aih... mcm saje nk wat aku naik darah je... yana ckp 'hah! pe lagi bende yg budak pra-matang nie bawak...?' aku cm...(aih nie da mlampau nih...) pastu dorg pun ikt kt pra-mtg... pe yg pra-mtg nye...? biase la tuh org bli puncher n glitters ntuk seni... geram lah...!!! da ckp cmtu leh lg mntk nk pnjm... eee lepuk karang...! pastu shazwan amik satu puncher nk try kt buku sivik n aku prasan 'dia' cm senyum skit ble tgk... eee!!! geli aku tau x!!! naik bulu roma aku...! da nk naik juling mt aku sbb asyik rollkn je ble dia d... peduli pe aku klu dia bwk puncher skali that's not my bussiness but it is my bussiness when someone said 'that' has something to do with me...! eee aku mmg pntng skali klu dikaitkan dgn bdk tuh or when someone ckp p'kataan taboo tuh ntuk menyakitkan ati aku(konon2nye nk tgk reaksi aku) eh tolong la stop it ok ckp je yg ble benci2 nnti bsr sama2 n skrg mmg aku tgh berusaha ntuk tidak d pe kaitan ngan dia so that aku xkn naik angin psl dia skaligus benci dia... klu korg x bg aku pluang nk wat cmtu n sngaja nk sakitkan ati aku ble ejek aku ngan dia (n semmgnye aku akn naik angin n benci dia) jd smpai ble2 pun perasaan benci aku tuh xkn hilg so just please stop it...!!!

hurmphh...

2006-10-15T23:22:00.000-07:00

ari periksa bi n agama... smlm aku abis bc kh f1 pagi tuh n x bc agama langsung lg sdgkn esoknya nk periksa... nasib baik aku smpat baca smpai mlm td... kul satu bru tdo... n aku rasa boleh la gak aku wat td... cuma yg aku x dpt asas persaudaraan islam mmg salah giler... tp bukan la yg lain tuh betul suma... yg aku tau salah je la... bi plak aku jawab ikut pilihan aku kan aku rs ok la jwpn tuh tp rupa2nya... afifah d buku yg soalan periksa sebijik dgn soalan buku tuh n dia bru wat mlm td... n check td cm byk salah je... aku dah... aih... cm nk kecewa je kn... tapi tawakal je la... karangan lak yg article tuh cm xd idea nk wat n mmg aku wat yg tuh bukan last tp second... last skali aku wat phantom... mau x pjg aku wat... ye la tgh thn da wat salah n da tau pe salah aku so now is the time for revenge...! punye byk evidence aku letak n aku x tau btl ke x tp aku wat je... ntah btl ke x ntah la kan tp hrp2 btl la... tp yg x leh blahnye pipah da wat...! n dia tau jwpn dia n cm aih... sabar je la...

huhu...sedeynye...

2006-10-14T21:58:00.000-07:00

hari nie nasib baek aku sempat bgn... smlm g mkn steak kul satu lbh bru blk... so x sahur la... pastu terlepas qiamulail sbb ngantok sgt... aku da set 7 alarm so aku xkn miz fruit basket ari nih... n aku bgn pd alarm pertama je pastuh da x bgn dah... n second time aku bgn time 9.51 am... nasib baek... n then aku bgn la kn... nasib aku smpt bgn... puh...! tp... yg sedeynye... ialah kyo... huhu... kyo... sian dia... sian sgt2... kyo kn dia je sorg dlm ahli zodiak yg d dua sumpahan... huhu... sedey sgt... satu sumpahan zodiak tuh lagi satu sumpahan kucing... da la dia kna sumpah jd kucing d lagi sumpahan kucing... rupa sbenar kyo mmg menakutkan... n rsnya sbb tuh dia jd panas baran n dia asyik nk lawan dgn yuki... dia cakap dia jd cmtuh sbb yuki punye psl... sbb tuh dia asyik nk lawan n kalahkan yuki... dia jd panas baran sbenarnye sbb nk tutup perasaan sbenar dia... kesian dia... sian kyo... antara sume ahli zodiak dialah yg plg menyedihkan... kisah hidup dia yg plg menyedihkan... dia ssh nk terima kenyataan yg rupa dia menakutkan... baygkan cmne dia nk b'hadapan dgn org rmai... wlupun dorg x tau pe2 tp dia ttp xleh trima... apatah lagi dia da suka kat tohru skrg... lagi la dia x leh trima... baygkan pe reaksi tohru klu tau rupa sbenar dia amat2 menakutkan... da la dia suka kat tohru... klu tohru takut ngan dia mmg dia akn kehilangan segala2nya n dia akn kesunyian... aku perasan dgn sorg je yg dia blh jd diri dia yg sbenar iaitu guru dia... guru dia je sorg yg btl2 memahami kyo n tau wat's d best 4 him... kyo x dpt jd diri dia yg sbenar ble dia dpn yuki n tohru... yuki sbb dia benci yuki... tohru sbb dia suka tohru n dia x dpt jd diri dia sbb tohru x tau cmne rupa dia yg sbenar jd dia x tau cmne penerimaan tohru t'hdp diri dia n dia nie mmg jenis yg x pndai express feeling dia dgn btl... sian kyo... ble t'ingat kat kyo... aku t'ingat kat anyau... rindu kat anyau...

shopping...!

2006-10-14T02:39:00.000-07:00

ari nie aku bli baju raya...bukan baju kurung tapi baju t-shirt tuh... n jugak bli dua sluar baru... kuang2... da lama aku nk bli sluar baru... sluar lama aku yg wane hitam tuh ntah mana pegi hilang... yg x leh blah nye hilang dlm rmah sdri... so ms shopping tuh adik aku lapar la,kan... so g la kfc... yg cm rasa nk ketuk org je ble d org mkn dlm tuh... mmg la x heran,kan tp yg mnyampah nye org mlayu yg dok sdp2 mkn... nk kt cina ndak... dorg ckp mlayu... satu couple... nk kt org asing x mcm org asing pun nk2 lagi ckp mlayu... n dorg dgn rs x bersalah n x malu nye dgn selamba mkn depan org ramai... da besar pjg pun wat prangai lagi... sah2 muka tembok...! x tau malu lngsung...! n aku x smpt pos lagi kad raya... huhu...

pankek btl...!

2006-10-13T01:55:00.000-07:00

td ms ketas satu sains aku leh la gak wat... agak konfiden la tp xde la sgt... msk ketas pj... hurmphh hampeh...! de la gak yg aku tau n d yg aku x ingat n d yg x tau... yg x leh blah ble msk ketas second sains... mmg byk yg aku cm x dpt jwb awl2 so aku tnggl kn dlu tp mmg agak byk la gak kira mencabar la gak soalan periksa nie... sbenarnye (cm yg ckgu zarina ckp) soalan dia yg gak tricky tp sbenarnya jwpn dia sng je... d soalan2 yg aku cm t'sngkut jap... n then wat brainstorming nk bg jwpn pe n aku tlis la answer yg aku rs bole la... tp mmg ketas dua sains nie pankek btl..! n d yg aku x ingat n aku x suka sgt ble bende tu jadi... so aku bg jwpn yg aku kira ok...

wateva

2006-10-12T22:30:00.000-07:00

haha... aku da wat blog baru kah kah kah...