hee buat malu je dowh...

smlm buat malu je duh...haih...smlm aku ingat ari rabu tau sbb aku nk siapkan ketas pmr yg ckgu tu bg so aku cam kelam kabut nk siapkan sebelum tuition start an...so da siapkan ptg smlm ketas tuh n then lps maghrib tuh aku siap2 nk g tuition...mmg x bley blah au...aku siap cam btol2 la d tuition an...then g la awl skit,n jumpe maimun n die ajak msk...die ty aku first time ke n aku pk xkn la slame nie die x nmpk aku dtg?then die ty aku keje bm da siap?bm?aku pk...then aku pk maybe die ckp psl ketas pmr yg aku bru siapkan ptg td...then die ckp bm lg so then aku ty die ari ni ari pe???die ckp slase...aku cam what???!!!aku ingatkan hari rabu dowh...mati2 ingat ari rabu...haih buat malu je...tp sbb salah hari aku dapat ckp ngan naim...tp serius die x brubah...pemalu nk mampos...serius malu...aku nk ckp ngan die,die pegi lari...haih sabar je la...nasib la die jawab klu x jwb x tau pe aku nk kt...tp aih...mmg malu nk mampos...aku da siap duduk kat ats kerusi da siap bukak beg da...aih...malu btol...tp smlm mmg agak laen r...aku buat ketas pmr tuh kat buaian dpn rumah hakim...x sngke lak die dtg borak ngan aku an...agak lame la gak ktorg borak...6.45 tuh aku da msk rumah da...aku pinjam death note ngan die...aku ingat scary tp lngsung x pown...tp an hehehe,x sngke die msk basketball...da terel main...gold medal ntuk peringkat daerah tuh...peringkat negeri perak kot klu x silap...die bru msk thn nie kire mmg power r...then aku cter la skit2 yg ktorg msk silat...hehe...laen kli aku nk dtg awl la kat tuition...leh ckp ngan naim...hahahahaha...

my mind...

hurm...it really is hard for me...yup,life is hard for me...well,not just to get on with my daily-life but most of all is when i wake up every morning and start to use my brain...of course its the same for everyone but i just want to say bout me k coz this is my site n i get to say what i want...

well,i kept thinking that my friends(not all but some people) are the same as another people like them...like this one...,i thought he's the same as tam and when i dont think bout him and i see tam,i'll remember him...i dont know why i think he's like tam coz they r like sky and earth(hahahahaha)...they dont even resemble each other in any way but yet i feel them the same...its really odd and bizzare,this kind of thinking...

then this another guy(its always guy,hehe)...when i see darius for the first time in the tv,it was like watching him in there...really2 excrutiating(is this it?)...!and there's one time when i had trouble with this guy,then i saw darius...its really frustrating coz that point of time i dont want to see him but watching darius was like watching him!and darius in the tv is not such a good guy...he's the most irritating,annoying,stuck-up nose guy i had ever seen...!and the horrible thought often came slipping into my mind;this hateful guy is him?!and it was really an awful thought of course!eewww...!i just hate it u know...totally...as much as annoying my friend could be but its not anything like that worst darius!

hurm...its tiring u know...my mind is like a machine that goes on forever when i'm awake...and there's not a second it doesnt think something odd if i'm not concentrating on something...it always has something to think...always something up its sleeves(what the heck is this???)...blaming on my own mind when i'm the one whose controling it...what a geek!is it geek?ah whatever...but to be frank,i am really a complicated one...mymind always does the thinking...so there r millions of thoughts going in my head...so u can say i'm a type of person who thinks highly of herself sometimes...not always of course but when its the mind which does all the thinking,u cant say if its true...^_^

friendship...

it triggers my mind...what is friendship? can friendship really be build through the cyber world? could that really be call friendship? normally it wont lasts...thats what people thought...but i really hope friendship that brittle would never end because sometimes we could find true and solid friendship through there...but could that really happen?two souls who never meet, never hear each others voice, never look through the eyes, never see the solid flesh and never see the expressions that showed on each others face when things happen...one can just absorb the feelings the other feel through the words written in the chat site...can really that be classify as a friendship? it doesnt matters to me...as long as someone sincerely want to build friendship with me, i'll accept...eventho we cant see each other and talk face to face, i'll try my best to liven the friendship and accept it as it is...but i'm sure if both people can meet, a stronger relationship can be build... that i dont deny...

mmm...

well nmpknye sume pun da ok blk...aku da x down n da ok blk...mmm...x sngke lak pe yg akan jd terbalik...tp memandangkan sume pun da ok so it doesnt matter anymore...as long as da ok its fine by me...tp die da pun dpt gelaran dri aku...heh...pe bley bwat...tp skunk da ok...maybe die lain...who knows...mmm...ok la da ok blk...tp aku nie haih...x tau pe nk ckp...lemah sgt...aih...pe bleh bwat...just try to be more stronger next time something like this happen...mmm...i'll try...to be more open...and not soo worked up over a simple thing...yup...i'll try my best...yup...i'll do that...but it sucks tho,coz its the fifth time i got down coz a guy and its the third time it gets too much of me...it really sucks...hmm...when will i stop being such a baby?......i dont know...next time i'll try harder...yup...

its just too harsh...

harsh...harsh...its too harsh...its too cruel...too much to endure...had to pass it on...coz its too much...too enormous to be taken alone...open hands help a lot...but still hazy all along the way...dont know when will be alive again...its just too much to take...too much to confront...too harshly damn serious...not a speck of pity...its the cruellest possible way that could be imagine by normal mind...too complicated to process...too curstful to explore...too much...way too much...cant take it right down to solid truth...tho its still fuzzy to see the cause...that ignited what ever had happened...its blur...cant make out what it was about...its too damn harsh...just awful...hit right to the pit of the belly...that causes soo much pain...just too much to take...too harsh...

universal...

today i had another confusing conversation...with my far-distant fren, kashif the 19-year-old boy...today talked a lot on the topic of love...blah3...my head kinda hurts coz i had to think what to say...but its an interesting topic...then i went to tuition today and i met lots of old frens but i didnt hv the chance to say hi...pity me...huhu...but the math tuition was fun...very interesting...the teacher was a talkative one and he did made it enjoyable...i love it...

4th of december...a special day...

yesterday i had alot of fun...hihi...wanna knw why?hehe...well becoz i was cheerful yesterday neh...i had an unusual good mood so the day shined brighter than usual...hehehe...i seemed wanting to talk to everyone that i can...i called my frens...and even when i chated i laughed a lot...maybe becoz i started the day with laughter...hehehe...my fren called me at 8 am so i was like still half-awake...so the conversation that we had was hilarious...and i also had this confusing chat with my other fren and my heart was thumping badly to what the conversation was taking to...and my mind was going crazy wether to concentrate onthe chat or to my bes fren problem...it was really a hard time that time...but i guess i sorted it out ok...forth of december eh...hehe...i have to remember that date...it does seemed special in a kind of way...hihi...today i had some fun too...watching sakura-chan and syaoran-kun...hihihi...i'm trying to be cute while writing this...hehe...its kinda funny tho...hahaha...i really wonder why i'm having this good mood these couple of days...hurm...?hehe..^_^

a cheerful day...?

hurm...last night i slept at 3 am in the morning...! u wanna knw why? well,coz i wanna watch tv...hahaha...what a funny excuse...if i stayed up coz i wanna study, thats more acceptable i think...hehehe...i could give up the bear just to watch anime...haha...freaky fizah...i'm suppose to wake up late today,no? coz that was the first time i stayed up soo late...and i should still be in bed rite now u knw...well, the reason i woke at 8 am in the morning was because someone woke me up by phone...someone called me...its the same person as the other day...but today i'm not angry at him...in fact,i'm pleased...we talked some time for about 11 minutes...haha its his phone...so much for his money...but i guess he didnt mind...he's sweet...and we talked when i was still half awake...and of course it became a weird and funny conversation...well coz i'm not fully awake yet so i heard wrong soo many times and talked rubbishly...hahaha...it was quite a joke...and it did wake me up fully...and now i'm kinda having an unusual good mood...cheerful unlike always...and i smiled a lot...and laughed too...and today ma fren is going out to watch movie...its a pity i cant go with her but i guess something good came out of it...i dont have to confront him...haha...i dont think i can after what he did...i still can accept him as my fren back but i dont think that hanging out with him is such a good idea...plus, i dont want my good mood to be busted by him...no thnx... and well its a good thing that she's finally has the chance to go out with the stucked-up-nose guy...hahahaha...i wish u guys to have fun and i hope it'll work out...well i guess thats it for now...i'll see u around..toodles...! eww disgusting! hahaha...ok tata...

kashif...

hari nie aku g nilai 3 sbb mak nk bli brg2 ntuk along...then aku dapat bli beg bru for next year...klu x slp aku aku bli beg quick silver...wane biru la...of course la an...sbb lgpun beg skunk nie besar gedabak...mmg x ssuai ntuk pompuan cam aku...so aku bli la beg yg aku ske...yg d tulisan2...then ktorg g mkn kat seremban...mkn kat restoran minang...tp seriously aku x ske mkn kat situ sbb layanan die x bgs lngsung...aku x ske...hurm...forget bout that...then aku blk...smyg2 sume...then aku online...d 2 emel dri kashif...he is so so so sweet...the emel he gave me r soo lovely...its bout frens...he gave me d same emel...maybe he didnt realise it he sent twice...he is really a great fren...each time i chat with him, he is very polite n very sweet...he is such a great fren...sometimes he even give me advice...n i'm flattered when he do that...he's 19...i happy to hv him as my fren...that's for sure...hihi...

hahahahaha

hurm...hari nie aku bgn cam agak awal dri biase...sbbnye de org kejut aku ngan cara yg agak menyakitkan ati aku...die anta voicesms yg kosong kat aku...phm2 je la ble voicesms msk mesti d ringtone n ble aku jwb xd bende pown yg die ckp....banyak kli plak tu die wat cmtu...n aku cam agak geram tdo aku diganggu an...then last skali aku angkat tuh akhirnye die ckp...isi percakapan die tuh sket tp membangunkan aku dri mamai dgn segarnye...die ckp 'oi anak dara bgn la...' n aku pown trus segar dgn geramnye...lepas tuh aku bgn trus n mandi...ms tuh dlm kul lbh kurg 9 pg r...n aku pun bgn n msk meggi je sbb xd bende nk mkn...aku pun cam biase tgk tv...aku ingat nk sapu an tapi then angah turun...terbantut niat...lps aku da turun tuh aku bg msg kat dak yg kejut aku tuh dgn rs geramnye an...n lps tuh aku cam rs menyesal so i said sory but then die pun cm xnk lyn n aku pun trus x lyn...okla watea la an...skali kwn lame aku si acap tuh bg msg kat aku...n yg x bley blah nye die bley ckp yg aku da x ingat die n aku d pkwe bru!eeee bdk tu aku eeeee ntah la an... dlu aku msg n kol die,die yg xnk lyn skunk leh lg ckp yg aku da lupe kat die!siap bley tmbh yg aku d pkwe bru!mmg mlampau...mlampau...mmg mlampau...lps tuh aku d ty die, die smpn lg x jam pooh yg aku bg tuh an tp die cam senyp je n x bls...so aku pown senyp je cam 'ok fine'...die xnk jwb xpe...then ptg tuh aku cam wat video ntuk dibg kat mas...n ble aku tgk blk...aku cam x caye tu aku au...sbb cam laen gler...aku x sngka aku cam hurm...da brubah?well aku tgk muke aku sore aku cam len gler...cam aku x knl...n mmg aku ssh nk caye tu aku...sbb mmg cam aku x knal...n cara aku ckp pun...aku x sngke seklakar tuh...mmg ble aku dgr blk sbb d time tuh aku tunjuk kat mas poster naruto aku n aku cam 'ter'excited n mmg lwk gler sore aku tuh!!!jd sblm nie ms aku gler2 psl naruto sume mmg urgh memalukan btol! hahahaha bru aku sdr skunk...betapa slame nie aku da begitu byk memalukan dri aku sdri...hahahahahahaha

cuti...

hurm...aku x tau nk ckp cuti kali nie bes ke x...well...first thing yg aku bwat bile da cuti was packed things untuk g kem 2 hari 3 mlm tuh...den lps balik dri kem aku byk kuar mkn mlm...first kat 'asampedas' then kat 'sup adabi' then lastly kat 'burger king'...mmg kirenye tmpt tuh sume mkn sedap2 la...wlupun ms tuh aku tgh sakit an tapi tetap rs kesedapan makanan tuh...so mmg sedap la kirenye...sejak kuar mkn kat 'burger king' tuh aku da x kuar2 dah...except ms nk cri brg hantaran along...n aku duk rumah bwat nothing...bosan tahap cipan tol...skunk nie pown tgh bosan so tulis ngarut2 kat blog nieyh...hurm...

summer camp???

ok lets start with yesterday's story; sorry bout this coz yesterday i had no mood to post anything... well it seems to me that yesterday reminded me a lot of the summer camp i went last sunday... first, the song sang by saleem entitled 'suci dalam debu' was heard through the number one radio in malaysia,era of course...why it reminds me of summer camp?well one of the song i learnt there entitled 'azam yang suci' used 'suci dalam debu's soundtrack to liven it...and its one of the most touching songs i have ever sang in my life... second, that night when my parents and i went out for dinner at burger king using along's car we heard another song that i have learnt which is '5 cinta'...then third, we heard another song that my group,kasih 5, performed the day before the programme ended which is 'sing children of the world'...

brubah ke x???

cam x brubah pown...mksd aku diri aku la...cme aku rs aku x mudah naik angin je skrg...n bgn pagi pun da cpt skit...hehehe...ok la tu kan...kt bukannye boleh berubah mendadak...slow n steady r...tp...nmpknye bibit2 kemarahan mak sudah mule muncul...nie yg aku xnk nie...aku tau...klu leh mak nk aku brubah trus lepas blk kem tuh...aku pun mmg nk brubah...tp xd la hundred percent immediately lps blk kem tu kan...x larat la aku...x mampu aku lakukannye...maybe aku xkn dpt capai expectation mak n abah hundred percent but i'll do it bit by bit...

boredom, when will u end...

i'm feeling totally bored rite now...this boredom has now lasts for 2 days...ouh i wish this boredom would end...no...!i should end this boredom with my own hands...!there are lots of things that i could do to fill up my time but i didnt do it...urghh...really...!i must change!hey miaka...!u must change!dont waste your precious time fooling around and do nothing, pondering when will this boredom would end...no...!!!u must do something yourself...!dont waste your holiday lazing around in the house...!come on miaka!wake up!!!get up now!!!pull yourself together!!!wake up...!!!

da blk...

helo...aku bru blk mlm td...ngantok sgt2...ye la mane x ngantok,aku tdo 2 jam lebih je last day kat sane...group aku slalu lmbt tdo...bes la gak an...aku xnk ckp pe2 psl kem tuh...yg tu biar la antra aku ngan bdk2 kem tuh...huhu...

kem...

hurm...nie post last sblm aku pegi kem slame 3 hari...hurm...nk ckp pe eh??? ntah r... well kt tgk je la nnti aku brbh ke x lps g kem tuh...

who am i to them???

today we went home really late because we missed d first bus...we kinda waited 4 hours...and she was going crazy like heaven...i just stayed cool coz i was not in a mood 2 feel anything...i got out of d bus around 5 and i just got dressed simply n went to zati's house...yana didnt come coz it's too late...n d moment i arrived my frens had gone home...farisa said sop when home coz his gf wasn't going to come...so he went home with bal n syed...n i went to zati's home alone...like a stranger who just lost his way...i'm angry wif those 3...especially sop...he came coz he thought his gf would come n when he found out that she isnt comin he just left like that...he doesnt even cared 4 his frens(which was me who came late) not that i want him to wait me and see him but it proven with his action that he never care-less bout other people except his gf...he talked to me just when he needed to know what happen to his gf...my god...!he's using me again...!!!he's using me to get info bout his gf...!!!i just thought dat i could befrens with him again like usual...but it seems it just would work out with his selfish attitude...!!!now i seriously think dat i cant get along with him if he still like dat...really...n yea 1 more thing...bout bal...he didnt even asked me anything...why i was late...weather if i come or not...or even inform me he had to go home coz it was late...he said nothing...!!! na'a...i was thinking ' why is he like this???am i not HIS fren???arent he worried???' i mean pls...!does he really thinks i'm his fren...or he just take my frenship for granted??? tolonglah...! aku btl2 x thn la ngan keadaan cam nieh...bg aku frenship 2 sumting big au...sumting serious...sumting that MUST NOT be taken for granted...!!! i'm really fedup with his care-less-attitude...! he never takes this frenship thing seriously...he just take it for granted...thats not d kind of frenship i want or gave to others... no...!

bad mud...

hari nie aku bad mud gler2...aku bengang sgt ble aku da wat open house n dorg plak nk merosakkan mud aku yg sibuk menyediakan things ntk open house tuh...n i truly know how u feel yana...aku paham sgt2...baygkan aku in d process siapkan sume2 tuh n titibe dorg x jd nk dtg sbb hujan...i mean 'excuse me! aela...! rmh dorg dkt jer... laen la rmh dorg berbatu2 jauh aku x heran!' nie dkt pown x nk dtg...pe susah, tnggu je la hujan berhenti...payung mcm la xd...pastu boleh lak bal kt kat aku dlm hp ' wat esok r...' aku mcm 'what the heck is he talking about??!!aku da siapkan sume2 n die nk aku wat esok je la?! no way!' aku x kira die kna dtg gak...!sop lak lg satu mslh...!die lmbt sbb pe???TERTIDUR... pls take note ok...DIE TERTIDUR...! urghh!!! my goodness...! die tau hari nie aku wat open house die leh tertido...?nmpk sgt die amik remeh bende nie...sng2 xyah dtg...!geram aku la...!!! merosakkan mud aku jer!!!da la mud aku da dirosakkan oleh dak due ekor tuh...N... tmbh2 lagi bal x gtau aku yg die da nk couple...aku grm!!! mrh sgt2!!! bukan sbb die nk couple ngan dak ntah mne aku x knl...bkn la nk kt aku jeles...tp die x bgtau aku pown...!!!tu yg aku grm sgt2!!!n ble x t'bngkar pown die x nk cter ngan aku!!!aku nk tau...!!!eeee bal nie jahat tau...!!!same je ngan sop tu!!!mmg padan la jd kwn dorg tuh!!!

perang idea...

hurm...mane nk mule eh...?ok r memandangkan aku da bg tajuk dier perang idea, aku cter psl tu dlu...sbenarnye cmni...ms aku n mas nk g bli fail dier komplen yg aku nie da brubh la mcm2 r lakan...so smpai kat klas ktorg smbng blk...n kebanyakannye psl hubungan ktorg yg cam d kekosongan skit nie r...tp mostly perang psl idea die psl farhan n idea aku psl azim...mmg ssh btl nk lawan ckp ngan die nieh...penat aku memerah otak memikirkan idea n menyusun ayat2 power...seboleh2nye aku try wat die lupekan dendam mgarut die psl farhan tuh...die lak argue psl aku cmne aku benci dak azim tuh...mslhnye...die x tau yg aku da x benci die n aku da siap apology lg...so zati klu ko bc nie ko tau r aku d mintak maaf ngan azim...mmg x sngka r aku leh wat cmtuh kan...ayat tu kuar titibe...well die pown terkejut gak ble aku ckp sori psl pe aku wat kat die kan n aku pown cam ssh nk caye aku mintak maaf kat dak yg cam taboo bg aku...hmm pjg tul kan...n akhirnye mas pown trime nasihat aku n maafkan farhan n janji x try to forget the dendam...n last skali jamuan klas...mmg syox!!! wlupun game x brape successful tp mmg bes gler r...ble nyanyi lagu hepy bday tuh mmg smngt gler2 n so aku assume mmg sume org puas ati(or maybe x sume)...tp yg aku grm gler2 is ngan 'fran...' tuh...die x byr duit...n die dtg party...n die mkn lg dgn muke temboknye...N DIE X TLG SKIT POWN...aku GERAM GLER2 psl tuh...n lg stu die dgn slambe nye ngaku kat cikgu yg DIE DA BYR DUIT KLAS...like DUH!!! WHAT THE HECK IS SHE THINKING??!! MMG MUKE TEMBOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

grm...

aku geram...geram...geram ngan dak dua rang tuh...geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram geram x1000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tralalas...

it has been a while since i last chat in ICQ...i'm longing to chat again...but...i forgot the address so i think and i think and i think and i think....until 'pop'!i remembered back the name of the chatting place...ICQ...so i chat again and got few addresses from god-knows-who...and i added them on my msn...so now my list of 'other contacts' has increased by 10 people...one of them was a korean girl...i already have a swedish and american friends...and now a korean friend...and 3 unknown ids...eh no...2 unknown ids...ok that's all...actually i'm bored...nothing good to say...

life...

life is a complex thing...life without problems and obstacles are no more than an empty shell...those are essential to colour one's life...pain and suffering, joy and happiness...those things are facts of life...no one can change that...life is dull without them...enduring pain and overcoming obstacles makes a person tougher than before and matured oneself...those what makes a person, person...if a life is a never-ending-happiness type, what's the point pain created for this world...if one's life is joyful and no worries, what's the point suffering is sent upon human's life...all those soul-killing things will grow a person into a stronger being inside out...all the life-experienced would make someone more matured mentally and emotionally...happiness is bestowed upon human lives as an achivement and victory after overcoming the storm of sadness, waves-crashing pain and heart-throbbing suffering...happiness is like a light that would shine after a disastrous hurricane...that would change one's life forever...you live only for today...not for yesterday which has gone and had became a past...and not for tomorrow which you never know wether it comes or what will happen...you just live for today alone and today only, pronto! so live your everyday-life to the fullest and make the best out of it...do as many deed that you can, fulfill your prayers to the highest peak of concentration, make the most happiness out of the people around you and achieve as many dreams as you can...

today...

the past couple of days, he didn't came to school but today he did...i didn't get to talked to him...not that i don't want to but judging from the awkward situation; someone who i nearly like but i don't like anymore, i didn't even said hi...it seemed to me that he was avoiding me...all the times that i saw him were mostly his back...i never had a chance to even made eye contact with him...well maybe i'm just thinking too much...well that's normal i guess...i'm always like that so i'm not surprised...the feelings that i feel towards him are the same i feel towards wan...if i miss seeing him as if i miss seeing wan...if i'm happy because of him as if i'm happy because of wan...i look at him the same way i look at wan...as a friend...people may judge him as a bad-natured and flirty guy...but to me he is a sweet, cute and considerate person...others never experienced the same moments that i did with him...i may have thought selfish things bout him but that don't change the fact that he is my friend...nobody can change my opinion bout someone because its my perspective of others...nothing that i think would be the same with other peoples' thought...don't judge a book by its cover they always say...this is one of them...to me he has the ability to make someone feel loved and wanted because he knows that people love attention... he has his good qualities as a friend...others also have their own good and bad qualities as my friends...its the moments i had with them that made each of my friends different from one another and special in their own way...

a new day...

today is a new day...i begin with no heart-feelings to anyone and being bright with full confidence, asking for forgiveness for what had i done the day before...one thing that i thought i could never done thousands years to come, something that for the first time my best friend told me that she is very proud with me, which was made an apology to the most ever-time-hated person i had with in my entire life...it came out of the blue, my words of apology...he looked confused and can't seemed to believe what was happening...i don't blame him...i don't expected it either...my friend can't seem to stop from smiling and feeling proud of my action...i smiled and felt warm inside because she never told me she was proud wih me before...ever...this is the first time and i just knew i could never been wrong to have chosen her as a friend who can lead me to the right path...i am proud of her the whole time and i'm proud being her friend...

alhamdulillah...

aku rasa semuanye akan berubah lepas hari ini... mmg mula2 aku rasakan kat sklah td aku xd feeling...aku rasa semacam ble sedar yg die x dtg...mmg aku akui td aku cam rs kosong...aku msh x brape jelas ngan perasaan aku sendiri...aku msh tercari2...keliru ngan mainan perasaan yg sedang bergelut dlm diri aku antara logik akal dan hawa nafsu...diri yg menagih perhatian dri ssorg yg sudi memberikan perhatian yg aku nak...namun aku sedar yg ramai x mungkin menyukai ape yg aku buat...n aku sdri pun klu ikut logik akal aku, aku x nk bende nie berlaku kan...sudah termaktub dalam hidup aku sekarang yg dengan jelasnye menyatakan bhw 'no feeling2 ok...!' tapi diri aku yg semmgnye sukekan perhatian yg diberikan inginkn perhatian tuh jd akibatnye hati aku hmpir2 trjebak dlm gamble yg x spatutnye...mmg aku rs kekosongan td kat sklh n aku berperangai pelik sehingga menimbulkan rasa risau dalam klngan rakan2 aku yg prihatin...yana, mas, jaja, chan, n jonathan(maybe d lg tp aku x prasan) dorg sume risau tgk aku td n aku rs bertuah ble dorg ambil berat ngan keadaan aku tp aku rs bersalah sbb wat dorg risau ngan keadaan aku yg x menentu...aku ms tuh stil dlm proses merungkai simpulan2 dlm kepale aku...tgh berfikir...tp bwk masalah pulak kat kwn2 aku...n rasa kekosongan tu telah membawa aku ntk join dak2 laki n meninggalkan kwn2 aku n x menghiraukan dorg...skrg ble da muhasabah blk aku rs bersalah sbb x mempedulikan dorg...aku mcm tuh start dri blk dri library time BI kna relieve smpai blk...x patut aku wat cm2...ok esok aku akan mintak maaf ngan dorg n ucap tq sbb risaukan aku...especially jaja n jonathan...jonathan la aku x sngka die pun akan risau ngan keadaan aku...n aku akan terangkan sumenye pd yana...ble blk rmh n check hp, aku tgk d miskol dri die...so aku miskol blk...n die kol jap gne tefon rmh...n ktorg saling bls bbrape msg...n ms tuh la aku sdr yg everything between me and him is going to change after today onwards...aku da yakin skrg ngan hati aku just sbb lps die anta msg ckp 'da la wei aku mls nak ckp ngan kau...'lps bc msg die tu seolah2 aku da dpt ketetapan hati aku...aku x rs grm ngan die sbb xnk hiraukan aku malah aku rs relief sangat...that's when i know that sumenye akan brubah slps hari nie...aku x perlu sukakan die hanye krn perhatian yg die berikan kat aku selama beberape bln yg lepas...aku bru start kwn ngan die thn nie...lgpun aku xleh terpesong drpd niat aku...bg aku dia nie sweet n cute but that doesn't mean i have to like him after he gave attention to me...bukan la aku memilih yg dak cam die xleh kna pilih dak yg pndai gler2...no!!! i'm not that type of person...lgpun kt stil blajar so x perlu terburu2...lgpown yana 4 sure xkn trime...n yg len2 pown...nie bru sorg je yg mmpu menggoncang hati batu aku x lg thn2 dpn bru thn nie aku jd hati batu da d yg mmpu m'goncangnye...ntk thn2 mendatang aku xkn cepat mengaku kalah...!!!

lalalala...

it has been 3 days since i last update my blog... but honestly it felt like days before i last update it...seems like i'm already addicted to write in my blog...hmm how should i start huh?what can i say bout my last 3 days hmm...well 3 days ago i went to my friend's house...the same routine continued until today...my granma was like a volcano about to erupt...well the cloud of dust already made the surrounding hazy...and i just runaway to save my life...of course safety first...!i mean what is wrong if i go to my friends' house anyway...?its not like i did something shameful or anything...man...this is really sucks...my life is like being hovered by flies each day...one fly is more than enough to irritate me...let alone thousands of them...my ears are going deaf hearing the sounds of those files' wings buzzing nonstop...i could blew off any second if i dont stay put...well its kinda boring to go to school...but its much2 boring to stay home and do nothing and hears to flies buzzing in my ears...

saturday evening...

today i fast, continuing the six-day-fast in syawal...today is my fifth day whereas my parents fast for their last day...well i skipped one day on thursday because i want to go to my friend's house... this evening, just now bal called me and asked to get out of my house for a while...well it hinted me that he was already outside,waiting...so i went out and found him waiting on a motor with his younger sister and brother on the motor...so i asked him what's up...and i was like beaming at him when he showed me naruto's cad in his hand...he asked me dont you want any? so i just opened the gate and took a look at the cards...and i was smiling all over again and choosed the coolest cards i want...so i took two...and gave him two ringgit...actually i was kind of afraid because one of my neighbours saw him talking to me...and i dont like the look on their faces...it was like i'm a bad kid who dates many guys and dont have good attitude...like i'm a spoilt child and do bad things behind my parents back...but i'm not like that...!he is just a friend...my best friend that is...so it is not wrong when he comes to see me for a reason(or for no reason)...he's just a friend...that's all...not like he was my special boyfriend or anything...the thing is i just dont like it they look at me 'that way'...well he came to tell me that his open house is not on the day after last school day...it's tomorrow...well tomorrow is going to be a busy day so i hope i can make it to his open house...

crisis...

yesterday me zati yana bal sop n syed went to farisa's house for hari raye... well me zati n yana arrive there quite early not like the others... they had something to do... so we help ourselves first... after all im hungry back then... urghhh what a boring story...!!! well most importantly i SAW everything that happen yesterday... but i dont knw why she didnt realise that... maybe she's just too shy n nervous to realise anything... well wateva... hmm actually im not really in d mood today... eventhough i seems fine at school just now... well maybe bcoz of my prob... now i hv nothing to keep frm her.... she knws my feelings now... all of them... i really didnt care if she take note or not... d reason i didnt tell her before is that i dont want to make she feel quilty... thats all... but i really dont care if she thinks bad of me... but it seems she didnt care to be angry... but she had acspected that it would happen like this... meaning that the incident will effect people especially me and the other one... so i guess she had prepared for it... i felt good now that she knows everything... even bout my new prob... hahaha... that new prob is really a puzzling one... well for me of course but maybe puzzling is not the rite word well i dont knw how to describe it... hehe... and it seems that 'the idea' had never cross her mind before so she really doesnt want me to get involve... well duh! even i dont want too... i really dont knw how it happen but i realised bout it JUST NOW... and thank goodness its not too troblesome yet... so me and her r praying for the best... well yeah me too...!

hmm...

yesterday i slept early... 8.45 pm i was already on my queen bed... snuggle myself wif 'kyo' the teddy bear... hehe... well wateva but i really was very tired and so i slept till 5 am the next day... life at school today was ok i guess... i got 2 papers today and the results were ok... everything looks fine until i got a phone call frm syed( an old fren who i never talked to before and of course not so close) he told me that he, bal n sop would wnt to raye(hehe xleh blah) at my house so i was like 'huh??? raye kat rmh aku???mmm ok je la...) so i said yes... i thought only 3 people BUT after that bal called me and said there were actually 18 people...!!! and i was totally shocked(of course)...! but i got ready anyway... and i asked for zati's help... and so they came... they filled up my living room and there was no space for me to fit in... so i just stand at the stairs watching them talking and laughing among themselves... i really dont knw what to do after served them drinks and cookies and shaked hands wif the girls who mostly i dont know... so i just watch them like a play being act just especially for me... after they're gone i called bal to talked to him... well its been a long time since i last called him so its a good reason for me to call him then... so we talked like usual... and its quite nice a feeling to talk to him again like frens should be... hmm tomorrow we will burst into farisa's house... if everyone gives green light that is...

first day back to school...

today i woke up like always but what's different wif me is that i'm so pumped up to go to school... and thats a weird thing... and the worst part was we had to start the first day back to school by listening to some dental speech... well duh...its only half an hour plus wif the power point... i bet she wants to end it quickly just like we want to... then we go back to normal school life... well i really thought that we would be getting our papers today but it seems it didnt went like i thought it would be... i brought the 'jeruk thing' for my frens... and they ate them like wow! esspecially jaja... then we(me mas n yana) played tutup botol... i forgot the other name... i had expected that we would get our science paper today... and i somehow manage to get A... although 5 points lesser than mid-term... but ok i guess coz its an A... n i somehow manage to beat levonne... hmm quite a thing... heh... i'm suppose to get same marks wif chan but coz of the addition n deduction i've got... i'm lower than her... but that doesnt make any changes... just b'coz i HAD to be sincere so i'm lower than her... AND she thought that i wan to add marks...! like duh...! i told her that its not like what she thinks... good thing she realized it after that... but i'm stil below john... my god fiza! this is just science paper...! not including OTHER papers YET... mmm well me n kucai fulfilled our promises today... hmm good... n whats more... someone got chocolate frm him... wow... chocolate... sweet...! its a pity i'm fasting today if not i can have a share too... huh... ah no big deal...!

boring day...

hmm... after a week of holiday i feel weird coz tomorrow i'll be going to school... mmm nothing much happen today... just some guys came to my house but of course i didnt open the door and ignore them... though i didnt make any noise coz i didnt want them to realize there was someone in the house... but then i realized that they were just going to give me a hamper but of course they didnt gave it to me coz they didnt realize i exist anyway ok stop it! hmm... when its 3.30 pm i quickly change the chanel... then i remember sumthing... 'man! the remote cntrl isnt working right! so how's i'm suppose to change the subtitle...?' well duh! of course i got to borrow frm someone and that someone is zati of course... so i called her... but then... bustered! she's not home... can i borrow frm her sis??? arghh forget the damn remote...! so i just watched ah meng WITHOUT the subtitle and i was like... 'what are talking about???' coz i dont understand a word they saying... but i still get the hang of it... a bit though... i know that qi yue's mom is suspitous(is this the correct spelling?? i bet not) bout their relationship now and the teacher is together again wif his girlfren and ah meng swore in front of qi yue's dad grave that he will protect qi yue no matter what happen n much2 more... oh well there's nothing much that i can do at home... i thought i want to download anime wallpaper BUT my pendrive is missing...! ah... must be my bro who took it... humphh... well so much wif the downloading thing... oh brother...! but well! ah meng is cute after all! and i like it...! hehehehe... but man its soo boring...! but when i think bout school i feel lots of butterflies want to get out frm my stomach and its an awful feel n i dnt like at all... you knw why? yeah damn rite...! coz i thought bout my exam results... ok ok stop! dont want to think anymore... want to watch tv or do filling-my-stomach mission... tata...

akhirnya...

akhirnya aku dapat gak msk net... stlah beberape hari aku try msk at last hari nie dpt gak msk... net kat rmh aku nie gile skit... smlm g open house rmh syafiq x rmai sgt r yg aku jmpe... aku jmpe syfq, julien, choy, yu weng fei, chan wai nam, chantelly and blaise... x byk pun yg aku bual ngan dorg... d la gak julien tnye aku psl levonne... aku tnye dia psl ian n dia... 2 je r... aku byk bual2 ngan zati n farisa... cam ktorg lak yg da lama x jumpe... hehehe... n then balik... mlm tuh aku raye kat rmh acik... n then tdo tuh aku x hrp sgt dpt tgk fruit basket... sbb klu hrp sgt aku mesti x dpt tgk... so pagi td aku dpt tgk... the last episod... sian sgt kat kyo... menakutkan btl rupe dia dlm bntuk monster... n then tohru tngkan dia... n kyo tukar blk jd diri dia n for the first time aku tgk kyo nangis... n for d first time adik 'tngkap' aku nangis dpn tv... huhuhu... well i cant stop myself frm crying though coz its soo touching and sad... akito pun tohru dpt lembutkan hati dia... n that's the end... for fruit basket... and of course they live happily ever after forever...

cam x caya...

smlm an aku x dpt tdo au... sebenarnye aku tunggu klu2 d org anta msg cm slalu tp xd je... so aku anta r voicesms kat kwn aku... aku ckp kat dia yg aku dpt voicesms dri ssorg... dia rakam lagu my heart gne voicesms anta kat aku... aku rs bes sgt sbb dia wat cmtu... x pnh d org wat cmtu kat aku... n aku rs hepy sgt huhu... so aku gtau r dia an... lps lama2 tuh dia miskol aku... aku tnye dia asl miskol? dia ckp aku miskol dia td... rupenye dia x prasan aku anta voicesms... aku suro la dia dgr... punye lama aku tnggu komen dia... last2 dia anta msg ckp dia t'anta msg yg dia nk bg aku kat kwn yg bg lagu my heart kat aku...! aku pe lagi... cuak x kepalang...!!! aku trs kol kwn aku n tnye pe yg dia tls dlm msg tuh... dia ckp r dia tls bes r awk dpt msg tuh dri ... so aku cm... nani???!!! oh my god...!!! dia da r tls name kwn aku tuh n anta lak kat kwn aku tuh... aduhai... pe la kwn aku tu pikiak... adeh mak... dia x abis2 ckp sori ngn aku... aku pun cm... huh... pe blh wat... tapi alamak ai... serius aku cuak gler n of course r malu beb...! ntah pe dia pikir... tu je yg aku 'mabuk' nieh...

halu...!!!

wah wah wah... akhirnye aku dapat gak wat post... stelah lame ku menunggu dapat gak aku tulis... nk balik dri kg satu hal... nk tunggu internet nie ok lek satu hal... banyak btl bende yg aku nk tulis... kk kt tgk list yg aku da wat kat hp aku eh eh... hehehe... jap eh aku check... alamak jap bc msg lak... mmm byk gak aku tls eh... tahun mmg laen skit au... aku tgk along rajin x mcm thn2 laen... beria2 btl along kemas rmh kg... pelik aku seketika... n ms blk dri rmh atok kabus tebal btl... hampir2 x nmpk jln... agak menakutkan duh... ble aku pdg blakang keta fuh gelap gler...! n angah bwk laptop die an n d cter naruto n bleach dlm tuh... so dlm kebosanan menanti sedara yg x blk2 tuh aku tgk r cter2 tuh... n lagi ms mlm raye tuh last pose tuh... aku pening btl au ngan sorg bdk nih... dia men2 ngan aku tahap maut ah... ssh btl nk predict pe dia akn wat... ntah pe de dlm kpala otak dia tuh... pas tuh ari pe eh...? x slp aku ari mlm raye kedua a'ah yep... mlm tuh pun same dia men2 ngan aku tahap mengancam... kah kah kah... ayat aku ni xlah blah kan... tp dia nie wat cuak aku je... geram pun d gak tp biase la tuh... dia tu mmg cmtu... n hah!!! nie aku nk story nieh... mmm ble eh aaa ms ari raye kn lps aku raye2 kat rmh atok n blk tuh tgh nk isi blk kueh tuh... titibe pakteh mntk tlg aku tngkap gmbr famili dorg... aku pun 'alamak...! pe die...! biar betik...! tngkap gmbr famili die...! da la x biase duh...!' aku cm da cuak gler kn tp 4 sure r aku menten je kat luar xkn nk tunjuk aku cuak kt mk teh pk teh abg syafiq abg faidz kak mira n muaz kn.... so aku pun tngkap la gak dua kli tp ya allah! tgn aku lak xleh menten... t'ketar2 tgn aku tp aku try wat seslumber yg bole... tngkap la gak an tp ntah cntik ntah x... tp mslhnye aku x ambil pluang...! ah siot tul...! alamak t'ckp ckp siot lak...klu yana bc mesti dia komplen aku amik p'ktaan dia... hehe... n raye kli nie pon aku xtra terbuka ngan spupu spapat aku... hehe tiga org je sbenarnye... mlm second last puase aku story mcm2 ngan ayin lgpun ms tuh dia je geng aku ms tuh... ari raye second aku story lak ngan dik-brdik due rang tuh... siap b'tukar2 hp... hehe... n aku rs cucu pk ngah kowt... comel btl!!! aku layan je dia ckp... sumting yg aku jarang wat ngan bdk yg aku x knl... n d last story is bout d cat... hurmphh... mne nk strat eh... mlm tuh raye ikut abh g rmh sdra mara... n smpai kt satu rmh nie... aku msk n then d satu kucing nih aku pdg je r ingat kucing mne sst msk rmh bsr gedabak tuh... tp sume org cm slumber jeh... n dia g kat d atuk tuh n dia pnjt kat kerusi mewah yg tuk tu ddk... aku cm plik sgt2... tame gler kucing nih... very intimate n very obedient ngan tuk tuh aku rs tergugat sgt... ngan cara atuk tuh jaga kucing (pas dgr cter cik mne tah) aku rs cam aku nie bukan tuan yg bgs lngsung pd anyau... sedih gler aku mlm tuh...

hurm...

ari xd pe yg aku leh wat sgt... td bgn lmbt... biase la da x skolah... leh la tdo... n then kluarga busu dtg n... n aku pun cam kaku je sbb da lama x jumpe... so aku diam je r... n aku tnggu cter ah meng ngan penuh sabar... tu je la satu2nye penghibur aku ari nih... n x lupa inuyasha... hehe... urghh... mmg bosan gler... n aku cam da x dpt tahan tp nasib baek da topup leh la msg ngan kwn2... tp... cam agak x dilayan gak... so bertambah bosan la aku... naruto n bleach pun da xd sambungan i mean angah da x download lagi so... bosan sgt... hmm... smlm zati da bg aku kad raya kat skolah... n lagi sorang bal da bagi ari rabu... pastu ecah bagi aku e-card tahun nie x byk dapat... n smlm d la gak aku tlg mak wat kuih raya... coklat berkacang... tp aku x bp suka kuih tuh... sbb cam pahit... byk sgt coklat kot... n aku x suka kacang... tp aku tlg je la... pnt2 mak wat... n nanti aku mkn la gak... hurm... pe lagi nak ckp eh... skin nie x bape bgs sgt sbb kecik n x leh komen... tapi aku amik pun sbb sakura n syaoran yg cute gler tuh... huhu...

ngantoknye...

urghhh... sbenarnye aku da ngantok nie tapi memandangkan kna jaga adik bah n mak kuar so xleh tdo lagi... n da xleh tdo bosan lak... citer kat tv x best sbb ari nie ari kamis...(aku ingat d supernatural tp xd pun...) n so aku pun wat keputusan nk tulis blog...(wlupun sbenarnye aku xnk tulis ari nie tp sbb bosan punye psl...) anyway ari aku abis periksa sbenarnye n aku gak happy hanya krn satu sbb iaitu dpt tgk ah meng dgn tng... huhu...(wlupun sbenarnye ble tgk ms periksa tng gak xd beza pun...) tp yela lps da tgk ah meng which is from devil besides you chanel 19 kul 3.30 ptg aku rs beban lak sbb kna baca buku lps tuh tp no hal sbenarnye sj aku nk wat citer... blajar nie d time2 syok dia n d yg x... cm ble kna baca buku sejarah mmg bosan sangat2... sbb aku x minat sejarah... aku suka math and sc... geog bc ala kadar je konon2nye senang tp x sngka lak agak susah... agak banyak la soalan yg aku tngglkan wat last2... mmg x disangka... math ketas dua lak cm agak kibut tp aku rasa ketas satu boleh la ok aku x stuck2 tp d careless mistake yg nasib baik aku perasan... then merdeka... yeyh.......yeyh....... wateva... lps periksa dlm kepala otak aku hanya pikir nk buku baru buku baru je... yana lak asyik pikir nk kumpul cd kumpul cd je... td aku call dia mau x lama ckp... nnti ble kuar bil for sure abah akn sound aku.. huhu... n td aku report kat yana yg abah aku ckp dia terlupa nk bwk blk borg summer camp...mknenye... aku kna pegi tp aku xnk... sbb xd sape nk teman... da la dua bulan... abis cuti aku cmtu je... huhu xnk... isk... isk... isk... buhuhuhuh... i dont want... td aku terpikir tau yg aku nk tulis dalam bi untuk blogger aku tp bukan slalu la just for practising... sometimes je r... shut down la otak aku klu stiap kli pun nk tulis bi... aku doa aku x yah g summer camp... amin... hmm... pe lagi nk tulis eh... hurhhh... ble abah nk balik nie... da 12 lebih r nie... ngantok gler nie... adik syok je tdo... humph... hehe... tadi aku tgk ah meng... hihi dia mmg comel btl... suka sangat... wlupun kdg2 menyakitkan ati tp dia nie sbenarnye baik sangat n comel sgt...

puh...

hurm... sejarah tadi mmg siot susah gler n td 4 d first time aku wat karangan bm yg plg lama... meaning that aku pay more attention to this than last times... n how i could not pay attention when i wrote bout anyau, rite...? well damn rite... well aku da janji ngan diri sendiri mlm smlm yg aku akn try not to crack up... well i almost did it today untill i cracked up a little just now at home... n a bit feeling of anger surged up inside me when for d upmhhteen(dont know how much) time 'they' called me half-matured AGAIN... owh how i wish i hadnt told them bout the 'kyo'thing... urghhh...! (not angry just... i dont know)

hee...geramnye...!!!

eee...!!! aku geram sangat2...! geram sangat...! tadi sblm seni start aku geram btl... mula2 tuh aku tnjuk la kat dorg aku nye puncher(betul ke eja nie...?) n then dorg pun try la kat tisu tau... then shazwan dtg... dia pun tgk skali... pastuh fatin ckp... 'ee hafizah dia pun d puncher la... ee ade jodoh la...' n then aku ckp la 'x nk la...' kn sbb aku ingat dia ejek aku n shazwan skali aku t'pikir(ntah2...) n aku tnye sape d puncher...? n dorg ckp bdk tuh pastuh aku jerit kat dorg 'jangan la...!!! x suka la!!! pe jodoh2 nie...!!!' aku realize yg dorg ckp d puncher tuh bukan shazwan tp bdk ngok tue...pastuh aku mngamuk(ikut kt yana) kt dorg... eee x suka la maen jodoh2 lak slambe dia je ckp pastuh da aku ngamuk tuh leh lak atira ckp yg aku nie emo what d *ell??!! pastu aku kuarkan lg glitters(glitters ke...?) yg aku bli tu n puncher aku yg laen... pastu aih... mcm saje nk wat aku naik darah je... yana ckp 'hah! pe lagi bende yg budak pra-matang nie bawak...?' aku cm...(aih nie da mlampau nih...) pastu dorg pun ikt kt pra-mtg... pe yg pra-mtg nye...? biase la tuh org bli puncher n glitters ntuk seni... geram lah...!!! da ckp cmtu leh lg mntk nk pnjm... eee lepuk karang...! pastu shazwan amik satu puncher nk try kt buku sivik n aku prasan 'dia' cm senyum skit ble tgk... eee!!! geli aku tau x!!! naik bulu roma aku...! da nk naik juling mt aku sbb asyik rollkn je ble dia d... peduli pe aku klu dia bwk puncher skali that's not my bussiness but it is my bussiness when someone said 'that' has something to do with me...! eee aku mmg pntng skali klu dikaitkan dgn bdk tuh or when someone ckp p'kataan taboo tuh ntuk menyakitkan ati aku(konon2nye nk tgk reaksi aku) eh tolong la stop it ok ckp je yg ble benci2 nnti bsr sama2 n skrg mmg aku tgh berusaha ntuk tidak d pe kaitan ngan dia so that aku xkn naik angin psl dia skaligus benci dia... klu korg x bg aku pluang nk wat cmtu n sngaja nk sakitkan ati aku ble ejek aku ngan dia (n semmgnye aku akn naik angin n benci dia) jd smpai ble2 pun perasaan benci aku tuh xkn hilg so just please stop it...!!!

hurmphh...

ari periksa bi n agama... smlm aku abis bc kh f1 pagi tuh n x bc agama langsung lg sdgkn esoknya nk periksa... nasib baik aku smpat baca smpai mlm td... kul satu bru tdo... n aku rasa boleh la gak aku wat td... cuma yg aku x dpt asas persaudaraan islam mmg salah giler... tp bukan la yg lain tuh betul suma... yg aku tau salah je la... bi plak aku jawab ikut pilihan aku kan aku rs ok la jwpn tuh tp rupa2nya... afifah d buku yg soalan periksa sebijik dgn soalan buku tuh n dia bru wat mlm td... n check td cm byk salah je... aku dah... aih... cm nk kecewa je kn... tapi tawakal je la... karangan lak yg article tuh cm xd idea nk wat n mmg aku wat yg tuh bukan last tp second... last skali aku wat phantom... mau x pjg aku wat... ye la tgh thn da wat salah n da tau pe salah aku so now is the time for revenge...! punye byk evidence aku letak n aku x tau btl ke x tp aku wat je... ntah btl ke x ntah la kan tp hrp2 btl la... tp yg x leh blahnye pipah da wat...! n dia tau jwpn dia n cm aih... sabar je la...

huhu...sedeynye...

hari nie nasib baek aku sempat bgn... smlm g mkn steak kul satu lbh bru blk... so x sahur la... pastu terlepas qiamulail sbb ngantok sgt... aku da set 7 alarm so aku xkn miz fruit basket ari nih... n aku bgn pd alarm pertama je pastuh da x bgn dah... n second time aku bgn time 9.51 am... nasib baek... n then aku bgn la kn... nasib aku smpt bgn... puh...! tp... yg sedeynye... ialah kyo... huhu... kyo... sian dia... sian sgt2... kyo kn dia je sorg dlm ahli zodiak yg d dua sumpahan... huhu... sedey sgt... satu sumpahan zodiak tuh lagi satu sumpahan kucing... da la dia kna sumpah jd kucing d lagi sumpahan kucing... rupa sbenar kyo mmg menakutkan... n rsnya sbb tuh dia jd panas baran n dia asyik nk lawan dgn yuki... dia cakap dia jd cmtuh sbb yuki punye psl... sbb tuh dia asyik nk lawan n kalahkan yuki... dia jd panas baran sbenarnye sbb nk tutup perasaan sbenar dia... kesian dia... sian kyo... antara sume ahli zodiak dialah yg plg menyedihkan... kisah hidup dia yg plg menyedihkan... dia ssh nk terima kenyataan yg rupa dia menakutkan... baygkan cmne dia nk b'hadapan dgn org rmai... wlupun dorg x tau pe2 tp dia ttp xleh trima... apatah lagi dia da suka kat tohru skrg... lagi la dia x leh trima... baygkan pe reaksi tohru klu tau rupa sbenar dia amat2 menakutkan... da la dia suka kat tohru... klu tohru takut ngan dia mmg dia akn kehilangan segala2nya n dia akn kesunyian... aku perasan dgn sorg je yg dia blh jd diri dia yg sbenar iaitu guru dia... guru dia je sorg yg btl2 memahami kyo n tau wat's d best 4 him... kyo x dpt jd diri dia yg sbenar ble dia dpn yuki n tohru... yuki sbb dia benci yuki... tohru sbb dia suka tohru n dia x dpt jd diri dia sbb tohru x tau cmne rupa dia yg sbenar jd dia x tau cmne penerimaan tohru t'hdp diri dia n dia nie mmg jenis yg x pndai express feeling dia dgn btl... sian kyo... ble t'ingat kat kyo... aku t'ingat kat anyau... rindu kat anyau...

shopping...!

ari nie aku bli baju raya...bukan baju kurung tapi baju t-shirt tuh... n jugak bli dua sluar baru... kuang2... da lama aku nk bli sluar baru... sluar lama aku yg wane hitam tuh ntah mana pegi hilang... yg x leh blah nye hilang dlm rmah sdri... so ms shopping tuh adik aku lapar la,kan... so g la kfc... yg cm rasa nk ketuk org je ble d org mkn dlm tuh... mmg la x heran,kan tp yg mnyampah nye org mlayu yg dok sdp2 mkn... nk kt cina ndak... dorg ckp mlayu... satu couple... nk kt org asing x mcm org asing pun nk2 lagi ckp mlayu... n dorg dgn rs x bersalah n x malu nye dgn selamba mkn depan org ramai... da besar pjg pun wat prangai lagi... sah2 muka tembok...! x tau malu lngsung...! n aku x smpt pos lagi kad raya... huhu...

pankek btl...!

td ms ketas satu sains aku leh la gak wat... agak konfiden la tp xde la sgt... msk ketas pj... hurmphh hampeh...! de la gak yg aku tau n d yg aku x ingat n d yg x tau... yg x leh blah ble msk ketas second sains... mmg byk yg aku cm x dpt jwb awl2 so aku tnggl kn dlu tp mmg agak byk la gak kira mencabar la gak soalan periksa nie... sbenarnye (cm yg ckgu zarina ckp) soalan dia yg gak tricky tp sbenarnya jwpn dia sng je... d soalan2 yg aku cm t'sngkut jap... n then wat brainstorming nk bg jwpn pe n aku tlis la answer yg aku rs bole la... tp mmg ketas dua sains nie pankek btl..! n d yg aku x ingat n aku x suka sgt ble bende tu jadi... so aku bg jwpn yg aku kira ok...

wateva

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